heartache

imagine there's a person who's singing this song to his/her beloved.
that is pure heartache. heartache is when you can actually feel the pain in your heart...not merely saying it...but not having the strength to say it when you feel it...when your whole world collapse...when you have nothing to live for...no aims and purpose. heartache is when u lie in bed and wished u were invisible...wishing it would be day the whole day...cos when nighttime comes...the devil robs you of your soul. heartache is when you live because u wanna show others that you are alive...it's when u try to save wha's left of ur dignity. heartache kills...it doesn't kill u totally but makes u a half dead... and the only pain that could get rid of it would be when u r dead. you cry urself to sleep...you stop crying bcos the tears have dried...you try to rip urself apart so that you can sooth the pain...but sadly...the only person who can help u is the one who wouldn't help.

that is sad isn't it? i feel sad for them. for both of them. the pain is hard to describe.

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醒来只有我一个人
分不清黄昏或清晨
空气微冷有甚么在流逝
慢慢降温一颗心往下沉

毕竟只是太短的梦
彼此终于退回陌生
我加上你两个人并不等于我们

你想我吗 会偶尔想我吗
是这样吗 飞扬的会落下
你爱我吗 如果诚实回答
可是爱也不是解答

空屋子里没有回声
等我记忆有你质问
我加上你两个人却并不等于我们

你想我吗 会偶尔想我吗
是这样吗 飞扬的会落下
你爱我吗 如果诚实回答
可是爱也让人疲乏

你知道吗 我心快要溶化
是这样吗 压抑的会爆发
你爱我吗 爱我就懂我吗
告诉我善意的谎话

告诉我善意的谎话
好让我相信我不是太傻
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想用一杯Latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味 你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前 证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的 那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退 我的防备 静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天 你会发现 真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
曾经我以为我自己会后悔 不想爱的太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪 为你做任何改变 也唤不回你对我的坚决