Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Monster being
My head is spinning,
Round and round it goes.
My thoughts swirled,
Cotton candy-like rolls,
Fluffy and soft.
I used to stand at the window,
Waving goodbye as you go.
Down the stretch of road,
Leading to the block,
Until you disappear beneath the shadows.
I used to be kind,
Smiling at people as they go by.
Looking at every angle,
Considering beauty in its kind.
When did the niceness fly by?
Love has gone away,
An ominous darkness looms.
Patience for people, well-meaning wishes,
Gone in a twist, in its absence,
A stronghold of anger.
Not myself, I used to think.
Growing self, a frightful jinx.
A being, molded hard by intolerable souls.
A body, tousled and tramped by the world's unknown.
Still stuggling to find the real me.
Round and round it goes.
My thoughts swirled,
Cotton candy-like rolls,
Fluffy and soft.
I used to stand at the window,
Waving goodbye as you go.
Down the stretch of road,
Leading to the block,
Until you disappear beneath the shadows.
I used to be kind,
Smiling at people as they go by.
Looking at every angle,
Considering beauty in its kind.
When did the niceness fly by?
Love has gone away,
An ominous darkness looms.
Patience for people, well-meaning wishes,
Gone in a twist, in its absence,
A stronghold of anger.
Not myself, I used to think.
Growing self, a frightful jinx.
A being, molded hard by intolerable souls.
A body, tousled and tramped by the world's unknown.
Still stuggling to find the real me.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
The Longest Journey Ever
I took a cab today,
Through a taxi call-line.
The location was clear,
But the driver was a million steps away,
It was the longest journey ever.
The interior was cold and musty,
Trapped in a hollow of misery.
Medicated oil stank the air,
I rolled the windows down,
It was the longest journey ever.
Thoughts of the day thundered.
A meaningless day at work(?)
A fulfilling time at the office(?)
What's to ponder, what's to feel.
It was the longest journey ever.
The wind blew in,
Fiercely discouraging, entangling my being.
Living a purposeful life,
Is what I hope in plenty.
It will be the longest journey ever.
Through a taxi call-line.
The location was clear,
But the driver was a million steps away,
It was the longest journey ever.
The interior was cold and musty,
Trapped in a hollow of misery.
Medicated oil stank the air,
I rolled the windows down,
It was the longest journey ever.
Thoughts of the day thundered.
A meaningless day at work(?)
A fulfilling time at the office(?)
What's to ponder, what's to feel.
It was the longest journey ever.
The wind blew in,
Fiercely discouraging, entangling my being.
Living a purposeful life,
Is what I hope in plenty.
It will be the longest journey ever.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
New Year Celebration
I'm trying out this slide show service on the web and turns out it's pretty cool. Here are the pics for the New Year 2008 celebrations! The eve of New Year was spent at Sicong's place, and the theme for the party was Uniforms! Wenyao and I scouted around for our Princess Elizabeth Primary School Uniforms within the short notice. Thank God for fat kids around, they actually have our sizes. I can't imagine anyone being able to wear them! Anyway, most of us came in uniforms, from schools around Singapore. Although some did came in mechanic wear or medic wear. But all in all, it was fun. We do have an inert obsession with role playing!
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
The New 2008
I think I did a lot of stuffs which I never thought I will do back in 2007. Managing a team, travelling alone, going on business trip, redoing my entire room, making huge decisions about life etc etc. Thinking back, I realised the time spent going through the challenges might seemed long, so much that I couldn't believe I did all these in 2007! All in all, it was a good year, except for a few gliches, which I really hope to make right this year. So here's what I hope for in 2008. Note that they are not in order of sequence!
Goals 2008
1) Save up! I really need to do this if I want to get married. I hope I finally grasp the importance of saving.
2) Spend less. This ties in with #1. I'm spending on stupid stuff without thinking and I must kick away that bloody bad habit!
3) Travel to either Europe, Japan, Australia or New Zealand. I hope to take a nice long budget trip and experience the world!
4) Pass my CFA. I am officially a CFA Level I Candidate, and hope that I can move on to the next level this year. Too much time has been wasted wondering where I should go and what I should do, and I have to move on fast. Wenyao, I need your support on this!
5) Focus on my career. I want to focus on my career no matter where I am. I think motivation is an essential triat which I hope will be with me all my life. During 2007, there were times when I lost focus, and when I started to get demotivated. Now I just what to do best at what I'm doing.
6) Eat healthy! I think being a pseudo vegan is a good way of life and I hope to continue to keep it that way. Eating less meat certainly creates better health in my opinion. I have been eating a lot of meat lately, and I should probably stay focus on my diet for a healthy way of life.
7) Start running. I haven't been running much this year, and I must start running! It's the most productive way of relieving stress, and keeping fit!
8) Be creative. I realised working can have a detrimental effect on your brain, especially when you are caught doing similar stuff day by day. Therefore, it's always best to be creative at everything, keeps the brain moving!
9) Spend more time with my family. I haven't been spending time with my family and I'm really feeling guilty about it. Parents will not always be there, and I might not be staying with them always, therefore it's best to start early.
10) Master a foreign language. I must start doing this on the later half of the year!
11) Finding a suitable location for a new home. I probably shouldn't say this, because the ring hasn't arrive. Haha! But I should keep this in view in case I missed a chance!
12) Grow closer to God. I want to grow closer to Him this year and thereafter. Been procrastinating way too long, and I really hope Wenyao will be with me on this. (It's a triangular relationship!)
13) Godly personality. I hope to have a personality that God wants us all to have. It should encompass all things good. Specifically, I hope to be able to be more patient, having more kindness, consideration, tact, sensibility and confidence.
14) Sponsoring an overseas trip for my parents. I think it's high time I paid for a trip! Might not happen when I get married. All the trips they sponsored, I really can't match up. Haha.
15) Continue my fashion education. Either I start something or I continue with the classes. Still, will only take place mid year.
I really hope I'll be able to keep to the resolutions I made. This is a frightful year for me, but the Lord tells me it will be good. I will keep my faith to that!
Goals 2008
1) Save up! I really need to do this if I want to get married. I hope I finally grasp the importance of saving.
2) Spend less. This ties in with #1. I'm spending on stupid stuff without thinking and I must kick away that bloody bad habit!
3) Travel to either Europe, Japan, Australia or New Zealand. I hope to take a nice long budget trip and experience the world!
4) Pass my CFA. I am officially a CFA Level I Candidate, and hope that I can move on to the next level this year. Too much time has been wasted wondering where I should go and what I should do, and I have to move on fast. Wenyao, I need your support on this!
5) Focus on my career. I want to focus on my career no matter where I am. I think motivation is an essential triat which I hope will be with me all my life. During 2007, there were times when I lost focus, and when I started to get demotivated. Now I just what to do best at what I'm doing.
6) Eat healthy! I think being a pseudo vegan is a good way of life and I hope to continue to keep it that way. Eating less meat certainly creates better health in my opinion. I have been eating a lot of meat lately, and I should probably stay focus on my diet for a healthy way of life.
7) Start running. I haven't been running much this year, and I must start running! It's the most productive way of relieving stress, and keeping fit!
8) Be creative. I realised working can have a detrimental effect on your brain, especially when you are caught doing similar stuff day by day. Therefore, it's always best to be creative at everything, keeps the brain moving!
9) Spend more time with my family. I haven't been spending time with my family and I'm really feeling guilty about it. Parents will not always be there, and I might not be staying with them always, therefore it's best to start early.
10) Master a foreign language. I must start doing this on the later half of the year!
11) Finding a suitable location for a new home. I probably shouldn't say this, because the ring hasn't arrive. Haha! But I should keep this in view in case I missed a chance!
12) Grow closer to God. I want to grow closer to Him this year and thereafter. Been procrastinating way too long, and I really hope Wenyao will be with me on this. (It's a triangular relationship!)
13) Godly personality. I hope to have a personality that God wants us all to have. It should encompass all things good. Specifically, I hope to be able to be more patient, having more kindness, consideration, tact, sensibility and confidence.
14) Sponsoring an overseas trip for my parents. I think it's high time I paid for a trip! Might not happen when I get married. All the trips they sponsored, I really can't match up. Haha.
15) Continue my fashion education. Either I start something or I continue with the classes. Still, will only take place mid year.
I really hope I'll be able to keep to the resolutions I made. This is a frightful year for me, but the Lord tells me it will be good. I will keep my faith to that!
Let's see what I achieved so far...
These were the goals set previously. Let's see how it all went! Red for achievements, Green for flops!
Goals for 2007
1) Lose 7 Kg and for goodness sake, please lose it! Yes…I gained another 2kg this year… - I think I gained another 2... Gross.
2) Visit Gym twice weekly. I must make full use of my payments!!! - Changed my payment scheme, visited Gym even less....
3) Be more confident & spontaneous. Yada yada yada.. - Not up to expectation still...
4) Strike 100 funds per month, or maybe just enough to make my boss gimme bonus! - Didn't strike 100, but getting bonus, but don't think it's too big..hai!
5) Complete baptism. I must be more motivated! - Bad Bad Christian!
6) Visit just ONE nice country. Aussie, Taiwan or Japan..that’s a hard choice to make! - I visited Taiwan!!! But it's not that nice...Went to London on a business trip! Super nice! But travelled alone though...does Redang count too??
7) Save at least 800 per month! Or as much as possible! Motivate me ppl! - This is really bad, I shall not delve further...
8) Spend 80 bucks a week on meals, eat less is the best! - I put in this knowing it's impossible. Hah. It will not be repeated in my resolution for 2008!
9) Join Standard Chartered Marathon – Tentatively 10km. - I didn't sign up at all! By the time I wanted to sign up, the cost was 50 bucks. I reckon such a short distance shouldn't be worth that much. And damn! The lady's singlet was so nice...Grrr..
10) Learn French - Put on hold...
11) Learn Dressmaking! That’s my first step to fashion education! - I started the lessons, but I stopped halfway!!! Bad Bad Bad!!!
12) Take/ signup for CFA/CAIA - I seriously hope I have time to study for this...
13) Hopefully a new work environment - Still at Telok Ayer Street...
14) Take a full body checkup! Hasn’t had time for it in the whole year!!! Maybe it’s the cost that’s making me procrastinate… - I did! And my cholesterol is so high I became a vegan for a while..damn..I should eat healthy food again!
15) Learn more about investments for my future’s sake! - I did, and I tried, until I lost... abit. Haha.
16) Improve my tennis!!! - I think I played even less tennis than I did in 2006...
Wish List 2007
1) New jeans - Got 2 nice skinny jeans
2) One nice designer bag - Got a Kate Spade and Agnes B, but not yet not yet...
3) New mobile phone - Got one phone, but super sucky! Don't buy N73!!!
4) Shoerack - I think I don't need this in the meantime. Haha.
5) New Keyboard - Yeah! Wenyao got it for me~!
OK! My resolutions for 2008 coming up next!
Goals for 2007
1) Lose 7 Kg and for goodness sake, please lose it! Yes…I gained another 2kg this year… - I think I gained another 2... Gross.
2) Visit Gym twice weekly. I must make full use of my payments!!! - Changed my payment scheme, visited Gym even less....
3) Be more confident & spontaneous. Yada yada yada.. - Not up to expectation still...
4) Strike 100 funds per month, or maybe just enough to make my boss gimme bonus! - Didn't strike 100, but getting bonus, but don't think it's too big..hai!
5) Complete baptism. I must be more motivated! - Bad Bad Christian!
6) Visit just ONE nice country. Aussie, Taiwan or Japan..that’s a hard choice to make! - I visited Taiwan!!! But it's not that nice...Went to London on a business trip! Super nice! But travelled alone though...does Redang count too??
7) Save at least 800 per month! Or as much as possible! Motivate me ppl! - This is really bad, I shall not delve further...
8) Spend 80 bucks a week on meals, eat less is the best! - I put in this knowing it's impossible. Hah. It will not be repeated in my resolution for 2008!
9) Join Standard Chartered Marathon – Tentatively 10km. - I didn't sign up at all! By the time I wanted to sign up, the cost was 50 bucks. I reckon such a short distance shouldn't be worth that much. And damn! The lady's singlet was so nice...Grrr..
10) Learn French - Put on hold...
11) Learn Dressmaking! That’s my first step to fashion education! - I started the lessons, but I stopped halfway!!! Bad Bad Bad!!!
12) Take/ signup for CFA/CAIA - I seriously hope I have time to study for this...
13) Hopefully a new work environment - Still at Telok Ayer Street...
14) Take a full body checkup! Hasn’t had time for it in the whole year!!! Maybe it’s the cost that’s making me procrastinate… - I did! And my cholesterol is so high I became a vegan for a while..damn..I should eat healthy food again!
15) Learn more about investments for my future’s sake! - I did, and I tried, until I lost... abit. Haha.
16) Improve my tennis!!! - I think I played even less tennis than I did in 2006...
Wish List 2007
1) New jeans - Got 2 nice skinny jeans
2) One nice designer bag - Got a Kate Spade and Agnes B, but not yet not yet...
3) New mobile phone - Got one phone, but super sucky! Don't buy N73!!!
4) Shoerack - I think I don't need this in the meantime. Haha.
5) New Keyboard - Yeah! Wenyao got it for me~!
OK! My resolutions for 2008 coming up next!
Friday, January 04, 2008
Bye Bye Dan
Dan is on his official last day today. In memory of his existence in the company, I've decided to write him a poem, inspired by his constant name-calling habits (to me!). It's sad that he's really uncreative, cos the name-calling is always circling a certain animal - FJ (Feiju), Ton Ton (the pet pig in Naruto), Xiao Pang (still..like a pig) etc etc. Tsk Tsk Tsk.
So Dan, here's one for you. It's a load of BS for you though. Hahaha.
Bye Bye Dan
Tomorrow comes,
Tomorrow goes,
“Bye Bye Ton Ton”,
“Goodbye too”.
Seven months passed,
And one ton gone.
Thinner than ever,
Dan looks wrong.
Ton Ton's happy
With Dan gone.
Work brings pleasure,
Oh! Thank God!
Dan eats Wan Ton,
Thinks of Ton Ton.
A happy poet,
With a cutesy bob.
Dan Dan packs on Friday morn,
Junks and stuffs on his table formed.
Seven months, a time too short,
But friendship ties, a bond still strong.
Back to school for Dan Dan soon,
“Study smart with A+ too!”
Ton Ton's back to mugger life,
“All the best!”, he wishes too.
Time will pass,
And time will run,
Days pass, weeks rush
Thus and Thus.
Dan Dan Dan Dan, be mindful.
Be strong, be brave and be good too.
Life ahead may be tough for you,
But trust God that he'll guide you through.
"Take care Take care!" Says us too.
All your friends from EH cooed.
"Come back, Come back, visit us soon!"
"We'll miss your jokes, and be back soon!"
So Dan, here's one for you. It's a load of BS for you though. Hahaha.
Bye Bye Dan
Tomorrow comes,
Tomorrow goes,
“Bye Bye Ton Ton”,
“Goodbye too”.
Seven months passed,
And one ton gone.
Thinner than ever,
Dan looks wrong.
Ton Ton's happy
With Dan gone.
Work brings pleasure,
Oh! Thank God!
Dan eats Wan Ton,
Thinks of Ton Ton.
A happy poet,
With a cutesy bob.
Dan Dan packs on Friday morn,
Junks and stuffs on his table formed.
Seven months, a time too short,
But friendship ties, a bond still strong.
Back to school for Dan Dan soon,
“Study smart with A+ too!”
Ton Ton's back to mugger life,
“All the best!”, he wishes too.
Time will pass,
And time will run,
Days pass, weeks rush
Thus and Thus.
Dan Dan Dan Dan, be mindful.
Be strong, be brave and be good too.
Life ahead may be tough for you,
But trust God that he'll guide you through.
"Take care Take care!" Says us too.
All your friends from EH cooed.
"Come back, Come back, visit us soon!"
"We'll miss your jokes, and be back soon!"
A New New Year
A New Year passed
A New Year past
Forthcoming New Year,
Impending fast.
A year gone older,
But not a year mature,
What have I done?
What I have done.
Regrets and achievements
Amidst highs and lows,
Big changes small tempers,
Cower and grow.
Unfinished businesses,
Imminent tasks,
Verklempt looms,
Not eager for start.
A Pessimist to many
But not necessary
A carthargic course
Welcoming new months.
A year of challenges,
A year of greatness,
A year of God's favour,
In faithful time.
Can't believe it's already the start of a new year. And when I though I was still in a New Year, aka 2007. Time really flies. Loads of changes and loads of un-changes. Hah. Wrote a poem to reminisce about 2007. Shall update on my resolutions on a later date!
A New Year past
Forthcoming New Year,
Impending fast.
A year gone older,
But not a year mature,
What have I done?
What I have done.
Regrets and achievements
Amidst highs and lows,
Big changes small tempers,
Cower and grow.
Unfinished businesses,
Imminent tasks,
Verklempt looms,
Not eager for start.
A Pessimist to many
But not necessary
A carthargic course
Welcoming new months.
A year of challenges,
A year of greatness,
A year of God's favour,
In faithful time.
Can't believe it's already the start of a new year. And when I though I was still in a New Year, aka 2007. Time really flies. Loads of changes and loads of un-changes. Hah. Wrote a poem to reminisce about 2007. Shall update on my resolutions on a later date!