So who's that anonymous? Why the fish and not the money?!
**Too sick to think**
Destination for rants, for raves, for self, and for the people who cared about the puny one in the big big world.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Sick!
I think I have been sick since last week and somehow it's getting worse. I feel groggy and woozy all the time, especially after doping the medicine in my mouth. Gross.
And I still need to work tomorrow!!! I think if God gives me a choice to have kids or work, I think I will choose the former. HAHAHAHA. At least I get to push all the excuses of being fat to pregnancy! Haha. Slack!
Time for a nose cleanup again! **mucus flowing**Ewww*
And I still need to work tomorrow!!! I think if God gives me a choice to have kids or work, I think I will choose the former. HAHAHAHA. At least I get to push all the excuses of being fat to pregnancy! Haha. Slack!
Time for a nose cleanup again! **mucus flowing**Ewww*
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Boring saturdays
Working life really means no life at all. I have been stuck at home for almost all saturdays since the start of 2006. Talk about pathetic. There's basically nowhere to go, or rather no one to go with. Attached ones are busy going out with their boyfriends and it makes me wonder where the hell mine is. Singles are so happy going out and none seem to be free when I start to ask them out.
This is getting exasperating. Is it just me or is that the same with everyone else? I hate it when my mom keeps coming to ask me every saturday what am I planning to do the whole day. It just gives me this image. I'm like 30 and unmarried, and still living with my parents, and there my mom just keeps asking what will I be doing on Saturdays. Gross.
Took MC on Thursday and got wenyao to go with me for dinner at West Mall. And he suddenly commented that we haven't been to west mall in a long time. There I was thinking, truth is, we haven't been meeting much, cept for the half hour when you drove me home. Then even if we did go out, it's either his place, my place, jurong point or lot 1. Shit. How bad can that get? I always want to walk around the mall after a meal, not because I have alot of things to shop for. I can almost recognize every range of these clothes I see at the local boutiques! I just need something more.
Don't mind me. I am complaining my life, not wenyao. Not his fault that things cannot be anymore happening. I'm just kinda stuck at this point where there is nothing but work, and I dunno what else to turn to. I don't believe he has time for me as well. Gross. This is seriously not getting anywhere.
This is getting exasperating. Is it just me or is that the same with everyone else? I hate it when my mom keeps coming to ask me every saturday what am I planning to do the whole day. It just gives me this image. I'm like 30 and unmarried, and still living with my parents, and there my mom just keeps asking what will I be doing on Saturdays. Gross.
Took MC on Thursday and got wenyao to go with me for dinner at West Mall. And he suddenly commented that we haven't been to west mall in a long time. There I was thinking, truth is, we haven't been meeting much, cept for the half hour when you drove me home. Then even if we did go out, it's either his place, my place, jurong point or lot 1. Shit. How bad can that get? I always want to walk around the mall after a meal, not because I have alot of things to shop for. I can almost recognize every range of these clothes I see at the local boutiques! I just need something more.
Don't mind me. I am complaining my life, not wenyao. Not his fault that things cannot be anymore happening. I'm just kinda stuck at this point where there is nothing but work, and I dunno what else to turn to. I don't believe he has time for me as well. Gross. This is seriously not getting anywhere.
Friday, February 24, 2006
Bored with a Capital B
I feel so bored. This is a friday and I am online thinking of nice things for Brandon and his other half to do. I shall write all the ideas down. In case somebody or anyone catches any hints! *I feel so sad that I seriously gotta resort to this. What to do...I am the innovative half! **roar***
1) Flowers - They can be plucked anywhere (if you are cheapo) or bought from the market at 80 cents per stalk (for the less cheapo), or from any nice flower boutiques you can find almost anywhere with your eyes closed.
2) Inline skating - Exercise while holding hands, lovely! (My blades haven't been used since I bought them, rusty soon!**hint hint**)
3) Bake together. Decorate cookies with your love messages. If you find it too troublesome, go the hassle-free method and get those eediot-proof all in one mix.
4) Take up knitting. Knit a scarf for each other than plan a trip to somewhere cold in December, just to wear each other's scarves.
5) Take up a foreign language and converse in that language. Takes the relationship to a whole new 'foreign' level.
6)Take up dancing classes. Laugh out loud while you watch your other half not able to groove to the music *evil laugh*
7) Catch a play together. Time for a cultural emergent program.
8) Go to a cafe and have a scrabble tournament. Bring a dictionary along, so your partner will not cheat!
9) Sit opposite each other and share lame jokes, one person at a time, until both run out of breath laughing.
10) List out all the food you crave, and go on a food hunt, island wide! Make sure the list is 5 dishes long, so the game can last longer. Just walk from one destination to another if you feel you need the exercise!
11) Checked the itineries for a movie theater, and catch movies back to back. At least 3 movies. Best to do it on a weekday, cheaper!
12) Sit and read book together while lying on each other. Cozy!
13) Play tennis **hint hint**
14) Write cards for each other. Simple and affordable. Only takes about less than 5 min to write a simple 'I love u' msg.
15) Take pics with your digicam in the most hilarious and stupendous poses. Make a large frame from all the pictures and hang on your wall.
16) Keep a 'both' diary. Both are able to write and comment, keeps thoughts communicated. (Haha, our diary is still with me, haven't been updating in months)
17) Organize a special crusine day and cook the dishes of that crusine together.
18) Watch DVDs back to back until both are foaming at the mouth.
19) Pillow fight! Charge whatever grievances you have about each other in the name of pillow fight. Kiss and make up after that. =)
20) KTV! Lalalala...
21) Help each other to colour or cut hair!!! Fun!!!!
22) Play archery and try to outdo each other
23) Go prawn fishing!
24) Compose a song together, then you can have your own song! N play that during your wedding. Oh lala.
25) Go marina eat steamboat and fly kite.
26) Go for nite suppers from time to time. Stay over at each other's place after that and marvel at each other's belly. The one whose tummy is bigger get to sleep earlier. Hahaha.
27) Wear each other's clothes to sleep. **I am not saying undies you pervert!** Or exchange sleepwear so you can still smell his/her scent even when you are not on the same bed!
28) Do some online shopping and have the parcel delivered to his/her house!
29) Take up oil painting (or just any painting) and start painting each other's portraits.
30) Go for weekly running and start to motivate one another when the going gets tough. The best reward at the end of the run? Two slimmer bodies and a pair of fantabulous looking couple!
Ok, here's 30 things after juicing my brain out! Brandon, it's enough to last you half a year! Until then, I shall think of other stuffs after you finished every bit of it. Hai.. maybe I can adopt some of them myself hor??? *hint hint clue clue**
1) Flowers - They can be plucked anywhere (if you are cheapo) or bought from the market at 80 cents per stalk (for the less cheapo), or from any nice flower boutiques you can find almost anywhere with your eyes closed.
2) Inline skating - Exercise while holding hands, lovely! (My blades haven't been used since I bought them, rusty soon!**hint hint**)
3) Bake together. Decorate cookies with your love messages. If you find it too troublesome, go the hassle-free method and get those eediot-proof all in one mix.
4) Take up knitting. Knit a scarf for each other than plan a trip to somewhere cold in December, just to wear each other's scarves.
5) Take up a foreign language and converse in that language. Takes the relationship to a whole new 'foreign' level.
6)Take up dancing classes. Laugh out loud while you watch your other half not able to groove to the music *evil laugh*
7) Catch a play together. Time for a cultural emergent program.
8) Go to a cafe and have a scrabble tournament. Bring a dictionary along, so your partner will not cheat!
9) Sit opposite each other and share lame jokes, one person at a time, until both run out of breath laughing.
10) List out all the food you crave, and go on a food hunt, island wide! Make sure the list is 5 dishes long, so the game can last longer. Just walk from one destination to another if you feel you need the exercise!
11) Checked the itineries for a movie theater, and catch movies back to back. At least 3 movies. Best to do it on a weekday, cheaper!
12) Sit and read book together while lying on each other. Cozy!
13) Play tennis **hint hint**
14) Write cards for each other. Simple and affordable. Only takes about less than 5 min to write a simple 'I love u' msg.
15) Take pics with your digicam in the most hilarious and stupendous poses. Make a large frame from all the pictures and hang on your wall.
16) Keep a 'both' diary. Both are able to write and comment, keeps thoughts communicated. (Haha, our diary is still with me, haven't been updating in months)
17) Organize a special crusine day and cook the dishes of that crusine together.
18) Watch DVDs back to back until both are foaming at the mouth.
19) Pillow fight! Charge whatever grievances you have about each other in the name of pillow fight. Kiss and make up after that. =)
20) KTV! Lalalala...
21) Help each other to colour or cut hair!!! Fun!!!!
22) Play archery and try to outdo each other
23) Go prawn fishing!
24) Compose a song together, then you can have your own song! N play that during your wedding. Oh lala.
25) Go marina eat steamboat and fly kite.
26) Go for nite suppers from time to time. Stay over at each other's place after that and marvel at each other's belly. The one whose tummy is bigger get to sleep earlier. Hahaha.
27) Wear each other's clothes to sleep. **I am not saying undies you pervert!** Or exchange sleepwear so you can still smell his/her scent even when you are not on the same bed!
28) Do some online shopping and have the parcel delivered to his/her house!
29) Take up oil painting (or just any painting) and start painting each other's portraits.
30) Go for weekly running and start to motivate one another when the going gets tough. The best reward at the end of the run? Two slimmer bodies and a pair of fantabulous looking couple!
Ok, here's 30 things after juicing my brain out! Brandon, it's enough to last you half a year! Until then, I shall think of other stuffs after you finished every bit of it. Hai.. maybe I can adopt some of them myself hor??? *hint hint clue clue**
My hair!
Not sure when I started the hair frenzy. I remembered always paying loads just to spice up my hair. Yeah, literally spicing up. The texture is almost damaged. Haha.
Used to think ppl who colour their hair are ppl who follow the crowd, not having a mindset of their own. Guess what, I followed the crowd, but my mindset had a different view. A more colourful and bold way of expressing myself.
Initally the colouring was not that bad. Was a redhead in AJC, first three months. Became totally black for the 2 years in SAJC. After that, it was brown, just different shades. Common colour amongst girls my age.
The boldest probably came when I was in sports club. It was red, then it was pink, then it was red, then it was partial blond. I became ladybug, mushroom head, buttercup, then finally Zee. I guess Zee may perhaps be a noun for someone who needs excitment all the time. Hah. That's me. Change, to me, is the only constant.
Went and got a hair cut on Wednesday. Really a hair cut. Sometimes ppl see me and say I waste money cutting hair, cos the trimmings is not obvious at all! This time my hair is short, but not as short. I look guai actually, cept for the haircolour. Right now I have another nick. My mom calls the hairdo feather duster. I called it a lion's mane. My dad calls it, "so colourful". I seriously don't like it. The red-orange streaks is just not me. What the hell was the guy thinking? Orange?!!! It doesn't go with pink, red, blue or green! At least red or pink looks funkier! Hai.
Wenyao took me to ntu to make up for the numbers for the Shiseido talk. Reminds me of Sports camp! I felt so wierd the moment I walked into NTU's SRC. I look like a total wierdo. Everyone there has black hair! Worse is three girls (I presume year 1s) in their TaeKwonDo suit looking like I was someone who just came from Mars. You shouldn't seen their eyes. SO BIG!
Maybe it's a different culture. Told wenyao I must have looked pretty bimbotic when I walked into the seminar room where the talk was held. A nearly blond (and orange streaks) girl, holding a pink sweater. How bimbo can that get? Hai. Sure as hell, he agreed. Laughed out so loud when I started painting him the picture. Gross.
I feel so old when I walked into NTU. The girls with their eyes SO BIG looked so much younger. Like little girls..I am so old already. Hair still so havoc. Come to think of it, I probably have another nick. Lao Auntie.
HAHAHA.
Used to think ppl who colour their hair are ppl who follow the crowd, not having a mindset of their own. Guess what, I followed the crowd, but my mindset had a different view. A more colourful and bold way of expressing myself.
Initally the colouring was not that bad. Was a redhead in AJC, first three months. Became totally black for the 2 years in SAJC. After that, it was brown, just different shades. Common colour amongst girls my age.
The boldest probably came when I was in sports club. It was red, then it was pink, then it was red, then it was partial blond. I became ladybug, mushroom head, buttercup, then finally Zee. I guess Zee may perhaps be a noun for someone who needs excitment all the time. Hah. That's me. Change, to me, is the only constant.
Went and got a hair cut on Wednesday. Really a hair cut. Sometimes ppl see me and say I waste money cutting hair, cos the trimmings is not obvious at all! This time my hair is short, but not as short. I look guai actually, cept for the haircolour. Right now I have another nick. My mom calls the hairdo feather duster. I called it a lion's mane. My dad calls it, "so colourful". I seriously don't like it. The red-orange streaks is just not me. What the hell was the guy thinking? Orange?!!! It doesn't go with pink, red, blue or green! At least red or pink looks funkier! Hai.
Wenyao took me to ntu to make up for the numbers for the Shiseido talk. Reminds me of Sports camp! I felt so wierd the moment I walked into NTU's SRC. I look like a total wierdo. Everyone there has black hair! Worse is three girls (I presume year 1s) in their TaeKwonDo suit looking like I was someone who just came from Mars. You shouldn't seen their eyes. SO BIG!
Maybe it's a different culture. Told wenyao I must have looked pretty bimbotic when I walked into the seminar room where the talk was held. A nearly blond (and orange streaks) girl, holding a pink sweater. How bimbo can that get? Hai. Sure as hell, he agreed. Laughed out so loud when I started painting him the picture. Gross.
I feel so old when I walked into NTU. The girls with their eyes SO BIG looked so much younger. Like little girls..I am so old already. Hair still so havoc. Come to think of it, I probably have another nick. Lao Auntie.
HAHAHA.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Gimmicks
Got so pissed off today I seriuosly thought I was going to blow my top.
My face was looking so tired recently, so I thought maybe a facial and eye treatment would help.
Called up this salon near my place and enquired about the price for a normal facial. She started telling me about the promotions they are having, which was $28.80 for first time facial, which includes facial, eye treatment and neck treatment. Thinking I may not be there for the first time cos I couldn't be sure if I did facial there before, I told her what is the usual price for that. She said they have a promotion now which was $68 for eye treatment, neck treatment and facial if it's not the first time. Thinking I might not be doing eye treatment since I have a budget problem here, and my priority was only going to get rid of the black pores that have mysteriously predated my face, I asked for the usual price for a normal facial. She said $42. I remember the prices so clearly because I was repeating the prices to my friend who was sitting next to me while we were having breakfast. I thought it would be fun to try out together.
I set the appointment at 1pm, ready to try out the $68 package. Got there and she started asking which treatments I was interested and started telling me the package prices. Note it's long term packages, 10 times, and I don't foresee I have the committment to start one now. So I told her I was interested in the $68 she mentioned and she started introducing me to the $680 ($68x10) package. I told her I would try once and she mentioned something about why not I buy the package and I can take that as one time from the package. Told her I was not interested at that point of time, and I was ushered to the treatment room. At that time, I was assuming I was getting an eye treatment, neck treatment and facial treatment.
She asked me to put on the towel and lay on the bed. I did what was told. Before she started applying the cream on me, she started asking me to take the $680 package again. I told her I'll only try once, and mentioned that I wanted to trim my eyebrows too. She said it was included in the package and I was amused if I got it wrong. Then she started saying since I was not taking the package, the $68 only entitles me to an eyebrow trim and a facial, plus a shoulder massage or something like that. I remembered going for facials and that shoulder massage was part of the process. I was baffled and fuming mad. I felt cheated to that place.
That was part 2 of the gimmick cos I initially had the intention of paying $68 for the promotion she was talking about over the phone. I remembered asking her if she was the one whom I was speaking to over the phone and she said yes. It was ultimately misleading and immoral in my context.
I didn't enjoy any bit of the process at all, all the time fuming mad, while she started on her service. She was being really nice and attentive to my needs, but the gimmick that I got from her previously got me boiling mad.
I was desperate to leave the salon because I seriously felt they could not be trusted. After the facial, she ushered me to a seat, assumingly to try and psycho me into a package again. I was right, but this time was 5 times, so $320 (5x$68). I said I was not interested and another woman started approaching me, coaxing me into buying that. I seriously felt cornered at the moment. Worst is I hate hard sales, and they made it bad enough from the gimmick.
I gave her 70 bucks and told her to keep the change. I saw her rummaging through the drawers for a $2 change and thought she didn't hear what I said. I was desperate to leave the place and just told her to keep the change and I took off. I shall never step into the place again. It was not the first time I got this kind of shit anyway. I went for a manicure and pedicure recently, thinking it was a promotion, because another lady told me to try it. Before the process was finished, she told me the promotion's over and I gotta pay the full price. I was told I could get the promotion if I paid $399 ($39.90x10). I thought I made a mistake so I didn't make any further comments. But this time I wasn't sure.
Of cos I had a fault, not that I am not ashamed to mention it. I was looking for budget facials, and guess what? Cheapos certainly don't deserve the best! I'm not sure whether to laugh or cry over it. Damn!
My face was looking so tired recently, so I thought maybe a facial and eye treatment would help.
Called up this salon near my place and enquired about the price for a normal facial. She started telling me about the promotions they are having, which was $28.80 for first time facial, which includes facial, eye treatment and neck treatment. Thinking I may not be there for the first time cos I couldn't be sure if I did facial there before, I told her what is the usual price for that. She said they have a promotion now which was $68 for eye treatment, neck treatment and facial if it's not the first time. Thinking I might not be doing eye treatment since I have a budget problem here, and my priority was only going to get rid of the black pores that have mysteriously predated my face, I asked for the usual price for a normal facial. She said $42. I remember the prices so clearly because I was repeating the prices to my friend who was sitting next to me while we were having breakfast. I thought it would be fun to try out together.
I set the appointment at 1pm, ready to try out the $68 package. Got there and she started asking which treatments I was interested and started telling me the package prices. Note it's long term packages, 10 times, and I don't foresee I have the committment to start one now. So I told her I was interested in the $68 she mentioned and she started introducing me to the $680 ($68x10) package. I told her I would try once and she mentioned something about why not I buy the package and I can take that as one time from the package. Told her I was not interested at that point of time, and I was ushered to the treatment room. At that time, I was assuming I was getting an eye treatment, neck treatment and facial treatment.
She asked me to put on the towel and lay on the bed. I did what was told. Before she started applying the cream on me, she started asking me to take the $680 package again. I told her I'll only try once, and mentioned that I wanted to trim my eyebrows too. She said it was included in the package and I was amused if I got it wrong. Then she started saying since I was not taking the package, the $68 only entitles me to an eyebrow trim and a facial, plus a shoulder massage or something like that. I remembered going for facials and that shoulder massage was part of the process. I was baffled and fuming mad. I felt cheated to that place.
That was part 2 of the gimmick cos I initially had the intention of paying $68 for the promotion she was talking about over the phone. I remembered asking her if she was the one whom I was speaking to over the phone and she said yes. It was ultimately misleading and immoral in my context.
I didn't enjoy any bit of the process at all, all the time fuming mad, while she started on her service. She was being really nice and attentive to my needs, but the gimmick that I got from her previously got me boiling mad.
I was desperate to leave the salon because I seriously felt they could not be trusted. After the facial, she ushered me to a seat, assumingly to try and psycho me into a package again. I was right, but this time was 5 times, so $320 (5x$68). I said I was not interested and another woman started approaching me, coaxing me into buying that. I seriously felt cornered at the moment. Worst is I hate hard sales, and they made it bad enough from the gimmick.
I gave her 70 bucks and told her to keep the change. I saw her rummaging through the drawers for a $2 change and thought she didn't hear what I said. I was desperate to leave the place and just told her to keep the change and I took off. I shall never step into the place again. It was not the first time I got this kind of shit anyway. I went for a manicure and pedicure recently, thinking it was a promotion, because another lady told me to try it. Before the process was finished, she told me the promotion's over and I gotta pay the full price. I was told I could get the promotion if I paid $399 ($39.90x10). I thought I made a mistake so I didn't make any further comments. But this time I wasn't sure.
Of cos I had a fault, not that I am not ashamed to mention it. I was looking for budget facials, and guess what? Cheapos certainly don't deserve the best! I'm not sure whether to laugh or cry over it. Damn!
Friday, February 17, 2006
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Valentine's 2006
I had loads of fun today! But I realised I didn't take any pictures at all. Haha.
Woke up this morning and trugged my skates to my granny house. Decided to take her shopping for once. Went to The Soup Restaurant at Jurong Point. After which we shopped at the value store. Everything was almost $1.05. Only some were slightly more expensive, capping at $4.05. I knew she bought close to 200 bucks when she was at this 2 buck jap store at IMM. This time she picked loads too. We had 4 basketful of stuffs. It was fun seeing her shopping around. Even better when you see her happy look! I felt I really made someone's day! Then I took her to NTUC where she bought heavier stuffs. Big cans of cooking oil and cartons of drinks! Thank God that the maid and wenyao was there to help. I have my hands full just pushing her around in the wheelchair.
Before we left for home, she asked me what is the name of the place that I just took her. I said it was Jurong Point. I felt so glad when I saw the slight smile on her face, trying to put into memory where she had been and what she had done today. I shall take her shopping a few times per month. Since I work late, I can spare my mornings. Just as long as I see the smile always on her face. It has been quite hard ever since my granddad's death. Can tell she misses him badly.
Saw her home and wenyao and I went to Queensway to buy my track shoes. It was my valentine's day gift. Very girlish colour, a bit not used to it. But the point here is it's comfortable! Wenyao said if I spoil the shoes before I finish training for the standard chartered 10km run, he will get me the nike zoom 360. Hah! I like that pair, cost a freaking 250, assumingly because of the comfort, and I seriously think it's over-exaggerated!
We headed down to East Coast to skate with our new blades. I got a pair for each of us. Although I got them at 1-for-1, I seriously feel I overspent. This shall be my extravagant indulgence for this year! Haha. I shall concentrate on running and skating! (I seriously hope! Motivate me PEOPLE!)
We had dinner at Jumbo! The food was 'oh-so-good'! Wenyao was saying it would cost us a bomb, but we were kinda shock at the price really. It was (happily)underestimated. They had a Valentine's day set costing $118+++, and I thought ours was so much cheaper and sumptous! We had Chili Crabs, Drunken Prawns, Garlic KaiLan, Seafood Soup with salted Veg and Beancurd, 4 Man Tous and Seafood Fried Rice. All was good, especially the Drunken Prawns! We finished every last bit of it!
We took a walk along the beach and gazed at stars (the cheapo romantic method) before heading home.
Haha..this was really a super fun day. I guess I felt I accomplished a lot today just by taking my granny out. It's really nice seeing her so happy. And also the fun goofy stuffs me and wy did while eating with our hands full of crap (crab). It sure beats eating out at fancy restaurants. I told him we'll do the same thing every Valentine's and he said I'll probably get bored with the idea. But then again, at least I had fun this year!
Thanks Wenyao! Happy Valentine's everyone!
Woke up this morning and trugged my skates to my granny house. Decided to take her shopping for once. Went to The Soup Restaurant at Jurong Point. After which we shopped at the value store. Everything was almost $1.05. Only some were slightly more expensive, capping at $4.05. I knew she bought close to 200 bucks when she was at this 2 buck jap store at IMM. This time she picked loads too. We had 4 basketful of stuffs. It was fun seeing her shopping around. Even better when you see her happy look! I felt I really made someone's day! Then I took her to NTUC where she bought heavier stuffs. Big cans of cooking oil and cartons of drinks! Thank God that the maid and wenyao was there to help. I have my hands full just pushing her around in the wheelchair.
Before we left for home, she asked me what is the name of the place that I just took her. I said it was Jurong Point. I felt so glad when I saw the slight smile on her face, trying to put into memory where she had been and what she had done today. I shall take her shopping a few times per month. Since I work late, I can spare my mornings. Just as long as I see the smile always on her face. It has been quite hard ever since my granddad's death. Can tell she misses him badly.
Saw her home and wenyao and I went to Queensway to buy my track shoes. It was my valentine's day gift. Very girlish colour, a bit not used to it. But the point here is it's comfortable! Wenyao said if I spoil the shoes before I finish training for the standard chartered 10km run, he will get me the nike zoom 360. Hah! I like that pair, cost a freaking 250, assumingly because of the comfort, and I seriously think it's over-exaggerated!
We headed down to East Coast to skate with our new blades. I got a pair for each of us. Although I got them at 1-for-1, I seriously feel I overspent. This shall be my extravagant indulgence for this year! Haha. I shall concentrate on running and skating! (I seriously hope! Motivate me PEOPLE!)
We had dinner at Jumbo! The food was 'oh-so-good'! Wenyao was saying it would cost us a bomb, but we were kinda shock at the price really. It was (happily)underestimated. They had a Valentine's day set costing $118+++, and I thought ours was so much cheaper and sumptous! We had Chili Crabs, Drunken Prawns, Garlic KaiLan, Seafood Soup with salted Veg and Beancurd, 4 Man Tous and Seafood Fried Rice. All was good, especially the Drunken Prawns! We finished every last bit of it!
We took a walk along the beach and gazed at stars (the cheapo romantic method) before heading home.
Haha..this was really a super fun day. I guess I felt I accomplished a lot today just by taking my granny out. It's really nice seeing her so happy. And also the fun goofy stuffs me and wy did while eating with our hands full of crap (crab). It sure beats eating out at fancy restaurants. I told him we'll do the same thing every Valentine's and he said I'll probably get bored with the idea. But then again, at least I had fun this year!
Thanks Wenyao! Happy Valentine's everyone!
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Sad Sad Life.
Started to think about my life. Realised I have been procrastinating long enough. I guess the truth has been staring at me all the time, it's just that I've never want to think about it, because once you start, the floodgates open. Yeah they do.
I want to study fashion merchandising. I don't care if I'm gonna earn as much as I do now. I don't even know if I'm gonna be good and excel at it. But it just feels like I'm never gonna get started. Worse is the thought that going towards that goal will get me out of the hell hole I'm in.
It's not like I don't like my job. The flexibility is something everyone wish for, when you can virtually come and go as you wish, just as long as you get work done. But I just don't want to get stuck there forever.
I want to get married early. Even if I saved enough for school, I'm never gonna save enough for marriage. Why do I feel that burden just increases with age? I'll like to start a family early. You might think it's wishful thinking in a society like this. I didn't think so but I am beginning to think that way.
It's not that I don't have faith in wenyao. I don't have faith in myself to make my life possible the way I want it. It's just not going to work. The way I see it, I'm not going to get any other education, and I am definitely going to marry late. Maybe 30. You might think that is the average age. But I don't want to slog my way through work just to see my son go to university at 55, or carry my first grandkid at 65, only to see him barely finishing primary school.
Just don't feel 23 is young. I have a colleague who's a year older spending money like water on anti-aging products. I get scared when ppl say I look older. I hate it. It's not that I hate to see myself age, but I just hate to see myself aged when I got nothing accomplished.
Someone msged me asking why the sad nick I put on MSN. He said I never had any sad nicks before. I told him Paper faces on parade is one. Everyone is wearing masks. I find myself doing that all the time. Just to get out of whatever misery I felt. There is something bothering me. Probably the fact that my parents are not with the decision of supporting my studies and they gladly gave the support to my brother. Perhaps they thought it was the best. Perhaps perhaps. I seriously want to support myself, but I find it really hard. Gross.
Tomorrow will be the same. All over again. Maybe it might not be. Just shut out the things that are happening and think of each day as it goes. Put on the masks and parade like the world never grows old. And sooner or later, the paper faces will crack. Maybe it is already cracking. I seriously dunno. But I seriously wish to take away the chore of putting on masks all the time. It makes you forget the pureness of life. I hate it.
I want to study fashion merchandising. I don't care if I'm gonna earn as much as I do now. I don't even know if I'm gonna be good and excel at it. But it just feels like I'm never gonna get started. Worse is the thought that going towards that goal will get me out of the hell hole I'm in.
It's not like I don't like my job. The flexibility is something everyone wish for, when you can virtually come and go as you wish, just as long as you get work done. But I just don't want to get stuck there forever.
I want to get married early. Even if I saved enough for school, I'm never gonna save enough for marriage. Why do I feel that burden just increases with age? I'll like to start a family early. You might think it's wishful thinking in a society like this. I didn't think so but I am beginning to think that way.
It's not that I don't have faith in wenyao. I don't have faith in myself to make my life possible the way I want it. It's just not going to work. The way I see it, I'm not going to get any other education, and I am definitely going to marry late. Maybe 30. You might think that is the average age. But I don't want to slog my way through work just to see my son go to university at 55, or carry my first grandkid at 65, only to see him barely finishing primary school.
Just don't feel 23 is young. I have a colleague who's a year older spending money like water on anti-aging products. I get scared when ppl say I look older. I hate it. It's not that I hate to see myself age, but I just hate to see myself aged when I got nothing accomplished.
Someone msged me asking why the sad nick I put on MSN. He said I never had any sad nicks before. I told him Paper faces on parade is one. Everyone is wearing masks. I find myself doing that all the time. Just to get out of whatever misery I felt. There is something bothering me. Probably the fact that my parents are not with the decision of supporting my studies and they gladly gave the support to my brother. Perhaps they thought it was the best. Perhaps perhaps. I seriously want to support myself, but I find it really hard. Gross.
Tomorrow will be the same. All over again. Maybe it might not be. Just shut out the things that are happening and think of each day as it goes. Put on the masks and parade like the world never grows old. And sooner or later, the paper faces will crack. Maybe it is already cracking. I seriously dunno. But I seriously wish to take away the chore of putting on masks all the time. It makes you forget the pureness of life. I hate it.