i'm in love...

haa...always thought anime wasn't nice until i found myself watching naruto...don't deny the fact that the long episodes did put me off in the first place though...haha...but the story line is great...with humourous parts and all..

and now...hahaha...i'm in love with an anime character...or should i say a few...haha
first it was uchiha satsuke...cool cool guy with a vengence

then it became his sensei hataka kakashi always late and and reading a book!

haha...and now...didn't expect this...always thought he looked ugly until recent episodes.... nara shikamaru

realised i like guys with very angular features...sharp face strong jaws..haha...and definitely intelligent...and ppl who likes reading!!! oh man...i am so fickle =p

~若无其事~

作词:葛大为作曲:光良编曲:max chew光良

你少看的书
最近翻了好几次
你变得沉默
什么都不坚持

你的唇边有某个句子
只是还没有对我表示
你的双眼中躲着另一个影子
还是我多心错看你的样子
不让怀疑淹没了理智

然而一切我很难解释
因为爱你我可以若无其事
不想不听没有追究的言辞
我们还在拥抱的彼此

所有心思原来是两件事
面对着我你何必若无其事
离开我你才能对自己诚实
回忆虽然难以收拾
若无其事不去面对现实
才讽刺

Love of my life - Jim Brickman & Michael W. Smith

Uncle Jack sang this song during the dinner...so sweet...!~

I am amazed when I look at you,
I see you smiling back at me,
It's like all my dreams come true.
I am afraid if I lost you girl,
I'd fall through the cracks and lose my track,
In this crazy, lonely world.

Sometimes it's so hard to believe,
When my nights can be so long,
And faith gave me the strength,
and kept me holding on.

You are the love of my life,
And I'm so glad you found me,
You are the love of my life,
Baby put your arms around me,
I guess this is how it feels,
When you finally find something real.
My angel in the night, you are my love...
The love of my life.

Now here you are,
With midnight closing in.
You take my hand as our shadows dance,
With moonlight on your skin.
I look in your eyes,
I'm lost inside your kiss.
I think if I'd never met you,
about all the things I'd missed.

Sometimes it's so hard to believe,
When a love can be so strong,
And faith gives me the strength,
and kept me going on.

You are the love of my life,
And I'm so glad you found me,
You are the love of my life,
Baby put your arms around me,
I guess this is how it feels,
When you finally find something real.
My angel in the night, you're my love...
The love of my life.

You are the love of my life,
And I'm so glad you found me,
You are the love of my life,
Baby put your arms around me,
I guess this is how it feels,
When you finally find something real.
My angel in the night, you are my love...
My angel in the night, you are my love...
The love of my... life.

Heard he this was his proposal song too...apparently he sang this and proposed to her...haha...cannot imagine...used to think he was all serious and macho u noe...haha...love makes the world go haywire!

the weekend

just finished typing out the animal behavior assignment. think i'm not sure what i wrote in it...it will be horribly graded...i can pretty much trust that intuition...well..let's make it a fact =(

wanted to sleep already...but juz tot i had to type something out...cos i'm using my bro's very nice lappie!!! hahaha...surprisingly that he lent me without screaming at me...he must have seen that depressed look on my face the moment he saw me in his room holding an almost crumpled piece of reading.

went to my uncle's wedding on friday...many ups and downs...disagreements over how things should work etc. i realised aunties are not very efficient (talking abt my mom)...not matter how much u explain the methods which is beneficial for everyone..they juz have to stick to their blardy ideas..gross...got along well with her after that though

went to the travel fair with my parents before the dinner at night...saw loads of shanghai packages...was deciding on which tour packages was the best until my mom dropped me a bomb. she suddenly said she doesn't want to go. what a disappointment...apparently she said she was worried for my brother and i think she had a disagreement with my dad regarding his work...then i was like 'wad the...' i dun deny i was being really rude to her cos she kept nagging at me the moment i walked into the house when i haven't done anything wrong...i yelled back at her and tat was it. she said i am not going anywhere cos i dun wanna have to spend my entire trip with you...then i was like fine.

was doing my essay halfway when she suddenly stepped into the hall and announce...i think i will go...but less days...then i was like where got packages for less days one...then she say...we will change the location...we will go beijing...i was like...'wad the...' refused to answer her...hate ppl who cannot make up their minds...dun they know how much inconveniences they are making? and all the wasted efforts to ask so much about shanghai packages at the natas fair...and now she's thinking of beijing..gross...pardon me...but i'm pretty much angered over her behavior..i guess she must be angered with me as well..but that's how we work...we can be best friends and the worst enemies!

alright...the friday dinner was surprising...my uncle actually sang a song for his beloved...my mom even commented it was the first time she heard him sing...haha...quite good actually...and definitely romantic...so envy

so many projects to hand in the next few days...getting very stressed up by it...realised my mood is getting very bad recently...but really thankful that there are many patient ppl around...first thing wy..who shut up the moment i said i dun wanna talk...friends who were out celebrating with me...jj,ber,hui,eileen and pf..not forgetting the flowers...jean who listened to my complains over sms...and my dad who sensed my ultimate disappointment and ask me if beijing was fine...in the end...i juz told him i'll go wherever he decides...

will be going bangkok...time to save up...and i haven't even applied for leave...gross...hai..time to sleep...have to meet bud tom still...and many things to do...n i haven' been running and my body is so lethargic...i want to stay young...full of vitality..hai...wierdly y am i not looking forward? i dunno.

stolen scriptures

copied all these from jx's blog..think it's really helpful

You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible
(Luke 18:27)

You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest
(Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you
(John 3:16 & John 3:34)

You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient
(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps
(Proverbs 3:5-6)

You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things
(Philippians 4:13)

You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able
(II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it
(Roman 8:28)

You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you
(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs
(Philippians 4:19)

You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear
(II Timothy 1:7)

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your anxiety on ME
(I Peter 5:7)

yeah...things getting hazy these few days...have done quite alot of unforgivable things...feeling desperate and helpless...gross...sometimes being in this situation juz makes u feel stagnated...do you feel happy or do you not? oxymoronic

deep sigh....HAAAAAAAAAAI!!!

there's been like so many things happening recently...i'm started to think life is like a pile of shit...well...to be exact...the reality of life has perhaps made me feel so darn exhausted about competition. how one person can be so bitchy and slutty to get her way through to things.

i thought i was evil enough until i realised what she did was even worse. oh man...such a person exist? how do they sleep at night? how do they come out with new ideas to cover up their stupid asses for every lie they make? how can they still be alive? how come they do not feel anything about their actions at all?!

i guess this only boils down to one fact. the society breeds this kinda ppl. and only these kind of ppl can survive. why?! we tried getting a step ahead of her and guess what. she's so smart. whatever step that we take still will lead us into a situation where we will still get burned and her getting her way. what is this?!

thought i was evil enough already...writing the report was a torture...trying to point fingers at someone, even when she was evil. felt so hurtful for the dirt that can come out of her mouth. asked eric why is she so evil...and he said : we also can be evil...we juz dun have the heart to do it. so bottomline is...she's heartless... eric eric...always the one to pinpoint the fact but subtle enough to cover his own ass. office politics is scary... now i'm not even sure who's pointing at who. this is getting horrible.

in spite of this issue...i'm starting to get pek cek over the condition of my body. my back is suffering from an inumerable and irritation disease. sometimes it's pain, sometimes it's scratchy...sometimes it's pimple...wad the hell? the skin looks bad...redness and all...and that means i have to burn a hole in my pocket again!! arggh...the doc's fee is high!!!! arggh!!!

next! the ants problem...wad's w the ants? i've already thrown away the bag that was sweetened with candies (i noe it's disgusting) but why do they keep appearing?! arggh. on my tables...from my keyboard...from the printer! arggh...getting irritated over it already!

whywhywhy?! uncle jack's wedding is next week and i haven't got my dress!!! and i'm still so fat!!! feel so tired recently and running is definitely not an option for me...gross...why?!

Try a little tenderness

by michael buble...lyric is really true...know how good women will do to guys if they treat them good...haha...sometimes the only way to get through anything that revolves around a woman is juz tenderness...no? haa

Try a little tendernessShe may be weary
Women do get weary
Wearing the same shabby dress
And when she's weary
Try a little tenderness

Ooh, she may be waiting
Just anticipating
Things she may never possess
While she's without them
Try a little tenderness

It's not just sentimental
She has her grief and her care
But a word so soft and gentle
Nakes it easier to bear

You won't regret it
Women don't forget it
Love is they're whole happiness
And it's all so easy
Try a little tenderness

But a word
Soft and gentle
Makes it easier to bear

You won't regret it
Cause women don't forget it
Love is their whole happiness
And it's all so easy
Just try a little tenderness

You've gotta try
You've gotta hold her
You've got to squeeze her
You've got to try
You've got to try
And always please her
You won't regret it
You won't regret it
Oh, try a little tenderness

Ahaaaaaaa!!!

juz came back from jogging...sometimes i wonder why is it especially so tiring to jog in the morning....running around in school at night is definitely a longer distance...but why do i feel 6 rounds on the track in the morning is enough to make my knees weak? came to the conclusion that it must be too early and my 'still not motivated to slim down' body is not reluctant to run the extra mile.

remembered praying yesterday night that god will gimme the strength to wake up and run in the morning...was suppose to wake up at 730...but finally dragged myself out of bed at 748...still half sleeping on the track when i ran though. was desperately trying to wake myself up. had said a silent prayer for strength b4 my legs started moving. was running towards the end of the first round when something caught my eye. it was a tiny full-bodied creature lying on the 1st lane...it wasn't moving and there were flies hovering over it.

it was when i opened up my damn eyes and saw it was a damn rat. it was so grotesque! arrghhh. that was definitely enough to wake me up and start running the next few rounds. but i made sure i constantly kept a clear distance from it...somebody once told me there will be fumes around dead ran and they are poisonous! being the kiasee me (not afraid to own up to that...i m kiasee)...i started running further after every round. paranoia kinda gripped me...i was caught in between running and going back...haaz.

then i suddenly remembered my prayer...to gimme strength and wake me up...that dead thing certainly did...and i'm sure my eyes will still be up all through the day. suddenly i was thinking 'i said wake up i didn't say to see this kinda scary thing' but then again my prayers were answered right? and god did more than that...as i progress from lane 1 to lane 6...i think i ran a couple of metres more...hahaha.. but back to to issue where i didn't ask for this...well well...i didn't ask for many other things...but got still gave rite? yupyup.

wad a great! (great....) morning.

The red shoes

i remembered reading this story by the Hans Christian Andersons brothers when i was young. i love the story....but wierdly i'm not sure why. perhaps because this story was different from the rest of the story...stories they told usually talk about the good guys and the bad guys...a distinction to tell kids how one should behave when they grow up. the red shoes...on the other hand, was tragic. a girl who have a favourite pair of shoes doesn't seem like an evil character at all. she had to have her legs cut off in the end. it was tragic and sad...and there was nothing to be learnt. well, at least that was what i thought.

went tuition today and my tutee started asking me to read this story...and amazingly it was 'the red shoes'. i was really surprised because not many had heard this story..and i could vividly remembered how much i like the story and i couldn't share it with others. there she goes asking me how can that story end like that...why does it have a sad ending.. i reread the story and realised there was a lesson to be learnt.

karen, the protagonist was born into a poor family. she was adopted by an old lady after the death of her mother. she was beatuiful but she had an obsession with the red shoes that was bought for her. she started thinking about how beautiful her shoes and the only thoughts inside her were about the red shoes. she forgot her duties and went against rules...all because of the red shoes. then somebody cast a spell on the shoes and she ended up dancing and dancing..she couldn't stop and she had to have her legs chopped off.

tragic isn't it? for the full story go to http://hca.gilead.org.il/red_shoe.html..it's a good read. i think i've learnt so much from it and sad to say...this story apply in our lives so much that it hurts to even think that such a lesson could be garnered from a story like this. the bottom line is...for every mistake u make...there should be a consequence..and after that consequence life must go on...i got another understanding though...it was a christian sort of way...the red shoes was like money...and the little girl was thinking about that all the time...so much that she forgets ppl who love her...she goes to church only thinking about her shoes...she forgots to take care of the old lady who adopted her because of her shoes...the red shoes somehow signified material wants...the person who cast the spell was an angel and she chopped her legs away...it was like god's wrath on her...by taking away her legs...the only thing that the shoes can wear...and the old lady...the only person who cared for her...she beared the consequences...and went back to god again...never needing such shoes...and god and the people around her forgave her. so wierd...it's like what the scriptures are talking about. the story is tragic...what a way to show god's wrath... somehow god gave mercy in the end and helped her through the period...telling her material needs only bring bad consequences..

amazing isn't it? i was enlightened seriously =)
thank god