Seemed to be talking alot about the past recently.
Every time a conversation starts, it goes...'remember the time blah blah blah'
Seemed like everything is so far away.
Times passes so fast, I'm starting to feel I'm being pushed with the flow.
Totally regretting it when I said I wanna grow up when I was younger.
Mum u're quite right for once.
Listened to this song everytime i go work. Nice.
100 years - Five for fighting
I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars
15...there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15...there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live...
I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind
I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life
15...there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose yourself
Within a morning star
15...I'm all right with you
15...there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live...
Half time goes by
Suddenly you're wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...
I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
15...there's still time for you
22...I feel her too
33...you're on your way
Every Day's a new Day
15...there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15...there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
Destination for rants, for raves, for self, and for the people who cared about the puny one in the big big world.
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Hold on
You tried so hard to be someone
That you forget who you are
You tried to fill some emptiness
Till all you had spilled over
Now everything's so far away
That you don't know
Where you are
You are
When all that you wanted
And all that you have
Don't seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
When it's hard to be yourself
It's not to be someone else
Still everything's so far away
That you forget where you are
You are
When all that you wanted
And all that you have
Don't seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to hold on to
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
When all that you wanted
And all that you have
Don't seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to hold on to
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
That you forget who you are
You tried to fill some emptiness
Till all you had spilled over
Now everything's so far away
That you don't know
Where you are
You are
When all that you wanted
And all that you have
Don't seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
When it's hard to be yourself
It's not to be someone else
Still everything's so far away
That you forget where you are
You are
When all that you wanted
And all that you have
Don't seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to hold on to
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
When all that you wanted
And all that you have
Don't seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to hold on to
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
NKF
haa..the recent episode of NKF has got me agitated as well. Nope i'm not angry over what happened. I donate to NKF as well. Each year they send me a card asking me to ask others to donate, ended up donating out of my own expenses every year. This has not included the number of calls of sympathatic parents have donated as well.
This issue has brought abt the issue of transparency in a non-profit organization like NKF. What is the problem here. The issue here is that NKF is a non-profit organization assuming to help ppl in need. This episode of events surrounding NKF has not just enlightened the public on the non-transparency of NKF, but also the ignorance of the public. Pardon my manners ppl.
The public knew the money was for non-profit purposes, but it didn't question what percentage was used. By that assumption, ppl donate because they feel there are ppl whose help is needed by them, there are others who donate because of the returns they'll reap, e.g. lucky draw, vouchers, discount coupons.
To the issue of a CEO getting too much pay. Then what is the pay he should be getting? Because of his position as a non-profit organization's CEO, does that mean he has to volunteer his service as well? If then, who would want to take over his position should he step down? A volunteer?
It's really his fault that he didn't come clean with the air ticket issue, the number of other positions he held as CEOs, the pte investments he has etc. Yes all his fault maybe, but that's really not up to the public to decide. We didn't see the contract. If assuming what he does is with the contract, then it's not his fault. It's a contract problem.
A person who works for a non-profit organization does not make him a non-profit worker. With the results shown over the years, he did shown himself as a person of competence, bringing NKF to a greater height than what was used to be. The worker is separate from the organization. He has no obligations to the man donating 50 to NKF when his monthly income barely exceeds 1000.
What will result from this episode? Through petition, he'll step down maybe. But who dares to take over? What will happen to the patients if donations are withdrawn? Who are the stakeholders here? What will happen if he stays? Does it mean a change of CEO will resume consumer confidence? Then again, will the new CEO be able to achieve what he has already achieved? Of course, there is no such thing as 'let the matter rest'. I would hope that would happen, but alas... I don't see that coming.
Many are focused on the issue of 'public money' and nothing else. I'm not saying organization such as these shouldn't be transparent. I'm saying transparency is a two edged sword. It brings good and bad. Look at the hoo-has over the issue. Ppl drawing out donations, vandalizations, petitions. What is going to happen? Will stepping down solve the problem? I feel sorry for him, he's juz a small player made big by mundane mistakes. After what he has achieved for NKF, his annual income meagre compared to the annual turnovers.
Also I think his actions for the series of events are pretty much understandable. Humans make mistake. I don't seriously think he's corrupted or anything. Just that he's a poor soul with no one who agree with.
Perhaps the public should think back on this whole issue. It seems like the whole world is pointing to him as a scapegoat. I think everyone played a part in this issue here. Everyone should bear a responsibility over what happened. After all, he's just a poor guy trying to salvage himself from a situation where everybody thinks is easy to solve by pointing to him as the maker of doom.
It has already come to a very bad situation. If he doesn't step down, nobody is going to donate any more funds to those poor souls who may be only getting help from the 50 percent of the total reserves. If he steps down, the decrease in donations might be less. Then again, the future of this guy is gone. Who is to know that the next CEO will be as 'righteous' as him. Unless, the guy is a volunteer who's apparently a god like person who don't need to survive, then will everyone shut up and continue to live life happy. Come on, for an organization this big, doesn't the workers need to eat? Don't they need salary? Doesn't subsidised health screenings by NKF need money? What about the campaigns they hold?
Hai... such a sad issue and fingers are only pointed to one direction. Thus is the tragedy of the world. Last thing to mention, human nature.
This issue has brought abt the issue of transparency in a non-profit organization like NKF. What is the problem here. The issue here is that NKF is a non-profit organization assuming to help ppl in need. This episode of events surrounding NKF has not just enlightened the public on the non-transparency of NKF, but also the ignorance of the public. Pardon my manners ppl.
The public knew the money was for non-profit purposes, but it didn't question what percentage was used. By that assumption, ppl donate because they feel there are ppl whose help is needed by them, there are others who donate because of the returns they'll reap, e.g. lucky draw, vouchers, discount coupons.
To the issue of a CEO getting too much pay. Then what is the pay he should be getting? Because of his position as a non-profit organization's CEO, does that mean he has to volunteer his service as well? If then, who would want to take over his position should he step down? A volunteer?
It's really his fault that he didn't come clean with the air ticket issue, the number of other positions he held as CEOs, the pte investments he has etc. Yes all his fault maybe, but that's really not up to the public to decide. We didn't see the contract. If assuming what he does is with the contract, then it's not his fault. It's a contract problem.
A person who works for a non-profit organization does not make him a non-profit worker. With the results shown over the years, he did shown himself as a person of competence, bringing NKF to a greater height than what was used to be. The worker is separate from the organization. He has no obligations to the man donating 50 to NKF when his monthly income barely exceeds 1000.
What will result from this episode? Through petition, he'll step down maybe. But who dares to take over? What will happen to the patients if donations are withdrawn? Who are the stakeholders here? What will happen if he stays? Does it mean a change of CEO will resume consumer confidence? Then again, will the new CEO be able to achieve what he has already achieved? Of course, there is no such thing as 'let the matter rest'. I would hope that would happen, but alas... I don't see that coming.
Many are focused on the issue of 'public money' and nothing else. I'm not saying organization such as these shouldn't be transparent. I'm saying transparency is a two edged sword. It brings good and bad. Look at the hoo-has over the issue. Ppl drawing out donations, vandalizations, petitions. What is going to happen? Will stepping down solve the problem? I feel sorry for him, he's juz a small player made big by mundane mistakes. After what he has achieved for NKF, his annual income meagre compared to the annual turnovers.
Also I think his actions for the series of events are pretty much understandable. Humans make mistake. I don't seriously think he's corrupted or anything. Just that he's a poor soul with no one who agree with.
Perhaps the public should think back on this whole issue. It seems like the whole world is pointing to him as a scapegoat. I think everyone played a part in this issue here. Everyone should bear a responsibility over what happened. After all, he's just a poor guy trying to salvage himself from a situation where everybody thinks is easy to solve by pointing to him as the maker of doom.
It has already come to a very bad situation. If he doesn't step down, nobody is going to donate any more funds to those poor souls who may be only getting help from the 50 percent of the total reserves. If he steps down, the decrease in donations might be less. Then again, the future of this guy is gone. Who is to know that the next CEO will be as 'righteous' as him. Unless, the guy is a volunteer who's apparently a god like person who don't need to survive, then will everyone shut up and continue to live life happy. Come on, for an organization this big, doesn't the workers need to eat? Don't they need salary? Doesn't subsidised health screenings by NKF need money? What about the campaigns they hold?
Hai... such a sad issue and fingers are only pointed to one direction. Thus is the tragedy of the world. Last thing to mention, human nature.
Friday, July 08, 2005
Alienation
Alienation is the result of capitalism. Where ppl work because of producing commodity, of what commodity can do for them. Working means getting paid. Working means not doing what you want to do but what you have to do. Hence, the resulting alienation phenomenon.
The person is separate from his/her work. The person is alien to what he/she produces. He/she performs because of what he/she is required and not because of what he/she wants. In time, alienation makes a person a slave to work, a slave for survival, a slave for life. Thus, the result of capitalism.
Today's dress down day. Finally a day to kick off working clothes and settle into something i feel comfortable in. No high heels, no pants and no more walking in a womanly manner.
Was on the way to work when i realised how different I behaved at work and in real life. Working life is so fake. I feel so alien for myself. It's like being another person whom you dunno for 9 hrs...then back to the real person you are for the next few hours until the alienating 9 hrs. It's a cycle over and over again.
Just had a 4 hour dinner break! Can you imagine that?! Haha...not a bad thing....but as long as I'm with my colleages, there's alienation. I had 7 fried chicken wings for dinner, loads of curly fries and potato skins. All fried stuff...and the dinner? at HOOTERS! Never been there before. Can't say what I don't want cos it was kinda decided. Ha ha. Went to Coffee Club for dessert. The alienation sure didn't make the dessert time any much funner. Usually I would be super happy and it will be sincerely happy but i just found myself faking the smile. Alienation.
Ppl ask if i enjoy the job...i dunno...it's ok i guess. Just really different. Something which I'll never expect to do but well...thus is life. I guess alienation will apply somehow.
< This is written in the office...haha...so slack!>
The person is separate from his/her work. The person is alien to what he/she produces. He/she performs because of what he/she is required and not because of what he/she wants. In time, alienation makes a person a slave to work, a slave for survival, a slave for life. Thus, the result of capitalism.
Today's dress down day. Finally a day to kick off working clothes and settle into something i feel comfortable in. No high heels, no pants and no more walking in a womanly manner.
Was on the way to work when i realised how different I behaved at work and in real life. Working life is so fake. I feel so alien for myself. It's like being another person whom you dunno for 9 hrs...then back to the real person you are for the next few hours until the alienating 9 hrs. It's a cycle over and over again.
Just had a 4 hour dinner break! Can you imagine that?! Haha...not a bad thing....but as long as I'm with my colleages, there's alienation. I had 7 fried chicken wings for dinner, loads of curly fries and potato skins. All fried stuff...and the dinner? at HOOTERS! Never been there before. Can't say what I don't want cos it was kinda decided. Ha ha. Went to Coffee Club for dessert. The alienation sure didn't make the dessert time any much funner. Usually I would be super happy and it will be sincerely happy but i just found myself faking the smile. Alienation.
Ppl ask if i enjoy the job...i dunno...it's ok i guess. Just really different. Something which I'll never expect to do but well...thus is life. I guess alienation will apply somehow.
< This is written in the office...haha...so slack!>
Sunday, July 03, 2005
STUPID FILA BAG!
(THIS IS AN ENTRY TO SEEK REDRESS!!!!! PLEASE DO FINISH READING AND GIMME COMMENTS...hai...but it's a long entry haha.)
omg...thought this fila event was over but it is not!
u see...i bought a fila bag a few weeks ago...at that time it was the red one...i happily took the red bag out the next day after i bought it and guess wad...it stained my blouse. the side of my blouse was red... tried washing it off but there's still a subtle colour of red at the side(the blouse is pastel yellow!)...not forgetting the worn out effect after the desperate attempt to get rid of the colour!
so there i was marching right into the fila store where i bought it (at queensway) and demanded he take a look at the blouse ( for some circumstance, i went there 2 days in a row...) and his assistant said yes there is a visible stain...and guess wad the store manager (Ben) said? he said the stain is not very visible and the stain can be washed...it's not actually color run but that the fibre has ran on the clothes..i was like 'huh? i dun see any fibres around' then he added on saying..well this kind of material is like that...u should probably wear the bag with a darker color blouse like black...i was like double 'huh'..duh.
so he said eventually that he would report back to the head office and get back to me asap...because of the info and my fuming mad situation...i thought he would call the head office and tell me asap...but he actually meant going down to the head office 6 days later then call me asap after that..alrite...my fault then.
then two days later i called him and say how issit...he wasn't even sure of the protocol...i mean like what to do if there's a complaint and such...well...he merely copied my number on a rough piece of paper when i should have filled out a form... i got mad..that's when i saw a customer service number at the back of the name card he gave me...so i decided to call them to ask abt the protocol of such situations instead...and the person is not around then i had to explain to someone whom i'm not sure. i did mention about the ridiculous reason tat guy was telling me.
then i got a call a few days later (monday) from the customer service ger (sapna)...and apparently she wasn't told that i had spoke to ben prior to speaking to that someone who answered my call. she told me i had to return the bag to any branches...cos they had to do investigations on why the bag's color ran...and apparently i was the only customer who complained. i told her i wasn't free that week but would probably try to make it down to any of the stores in town at the end of the week..i'll give her a call to confirm before heading down...but apparently she didn't hear that...no point pinpointing her fault then.
then 2 days later..ben called. he say they can do an exchange and i can exchange it at any of the stores...that's when i got confused. sapna told me to return not exchange..then i tried to call sapna to confirm but she took leave. i called her the next day and lo and behold..her attitude changed like crazy.
she went on to say she waited but no call came...i was like didn't i told u blah blah blah...then she said NO. then i was like..'ok..so who shd i follow' then she said...u didn't tell me u liaise with him b4 so of cos u listen to him. i was like huh? wad the hell with the attitude..cos apparently i was very much miscommunicated. that's when i juz told her straight the whole thing that has been happening to claim redress and she replied...' so wad r u calling me for?' isn't it better for u to talk to him instead of me handing down the msg'...then i went ' i'm calling u to confirm what he said is true because u liaised with me before him with different protocol...so now u dun have to liaise with him then i'll do the job. bye' frankly, at that point of time i was thinking... m i the customer service now? isn't tat ur job? and what's with the attitude.
then i called the ben to tell him i'll be stopping over for exchanges and he said i can do it at any of the outlets cos he had already sent at email. so i headed down to IMM and the gal called gladys look pretty baffled when i told her abt the exchange...so i told her ben sent an email...pls check...then with the computer screen facing me...and being the kpo me...i took a peek at the screen. there it was...ben's email...with his message...but i only managed to see the words " DEAR COLLEAGUES, PLEASE READ THE GREAT STORY. there...gladys closed the window.
i believe i was assuming he was talking abt me but well...assumption has got high probability. i was very very tired at all the complaining cos seriously the bag is only 38 bucks! it's not sumthing so expensive that i had to waste so much time and effort to seek redress and make stupid trips down. it's the disappointment in the company that supposedly comes out with good products that serve customer well..and of cos the stain made on my favourite blouse! that blouse is a major deal... it was one of my best blouse...something that i prided on...and definitely something i cannot get again!
there i was deciding to let it go and take in all the faults cos to them i'm juz a crazy fussy customer and the ONLY ONE who complained about that product. i exchanged for a black bag instead...assuming that only my product was faulty.
was taking the bus down from woodlands to granny house today...took out the ipod mini that wy bought...then noticed something different about it...the earphones are a different shade...on closer look i realised that the white earphones have turned a shade grey! and on closer examination, it seems that they have purpled color marks on them...i thought it was my imagination then i took a bit of the earphone and lightly touched the sides of the bag and WALLA! it stained! feeling super grossed out about it...cos u see...i'm a perfectionist and i like things new...esp when the mini is juz a few days old! gross gross gross. now i have off white earphones.
and do u know another of the lame excuses they gave me when i complained abt the bag was ' do u happen to allow rain on the bag' then i was like ' u mean it cannot touch water?' i was thinking what if i perspire...cos it's a gym bag....gross
this is a very long entry and i thank u for reading it...was thinking of letting the matter rest until this ipod incident..why why why...maybe it's my fault for being anxious and grumpy in the beginning...but i really didn't expect something like this (the people and product of fila) to be so disappointing. i have learnt a lesson...never to buy their products..and well..i do squirm when i see ppl using their product..hai...grossed out.
P.S: do u realise i've actually managed to remember all the names??!!! too angry!!! been thru so much shit...hai
omg...thought this fila event was over but it is not!
u see...i bought a fila bag a few weeks ago...at that time it was the red one...i happily took the red bag out the next day after i bought it and guess wad...it stained my blouse. the side of my blouse was red... tried washing it off but there's still a subtle colour of red at the side(the blouse is pastel yellow!)...not forgetting the worn out effect after the desperate attempt to get rid of the colour!
so there i was marching right into the fila store where i bought it (at queensway) and demanded he take a look at the blouse ( for some circumstance, i went there 2 days in a row...) and his assistant said yes there is a visible stain...and guess wad the store manager (Ben) said? he said the stain is not very visible and the stain can be washed...it's not actually color run but that the fibre has ran on the clothes..i was like 'huh? i dun see any fibres around' then he added on saying..well this kind of material is like that...u should probably wear the bag with a darker color blouse like black...i was like double 'huh'..duh.
so he said eventually that he would report back to the head office and get back to me asap...because of the info and my fuming mad situation...i thought he would call the head office and tell me asap...but he actually meant going down to the head office 6 days later then call me asap after that..alrite...my fault then.
then two days later i called him and say how issit...he wasn't even sure of the protocol...i mean like what to do if there's a complaint and such...well...he merely copied my number on a rough piece of paper when i should have filled out a form... i got mad..that's when i saw a customer service number at the back of the name card he gave me...so i decided to call them to ask abt the protocol of such situations instead...and the person is not around then i had to explain to someone whom i'm not sure. i did mention about the ridiculous reason tat guy was telling me.
then i got a call a few days later (monday) from the customer service ger (sapna)...and apparently she wasn't told that i had spoke to ben prior to speaking to that someone who answered my call. she told me i had to return the bag to any branches...cos they had to do investigations on why the bag's color ran...and apparently i was the only customer who complained. i told her i wasn't free that week but would probably try to make it down to any of the stores in town at the end of the week..i'll give her a call to confirm before heading down...but apparently she didn't hear that...no point pinpointing her fault then.
then 2 days later..ben called. he say they can do an exchange and i can exchange it at any of the stores...that's when i got confused. sapna told me to return not exchange..then i tried to call sapna to confirm but she took leave. i called her the next day and lo and behold..her attitude changed like crazy.
she went on to say she waited but no call came...i was like didn't i told u blah blah blah...then she said NO. then i was like..'ok..so who shd i follow' then she said...u didn't tell me u liaise with him b4 so of cos u listen to him. i was like huh? wad the hell with the attitude..cos apparently i was very much miscommunicated. that's when i juz told her straight the whole thing that has been happening to claim redress and she replied...' so wad r u calling me for?' isn't it better for u to talk to him instead of me handing down the msg'...then i went ' i'm calling u to confirm what he said is true because u liaised with me before him with different protocol...so now u dun have to liaise with him then i'll do the job. bye' frankly, at that point of time i was thinking... m i the customer service now? isn't tat ur job? and what's with the attitude.
then i called the ben to tell him i'll be stopping over for exchanges and he said i can do it at any of the outlets cos he had already sent at email. so i headed down to IMM and the gal called gladys look pretty baffled when i told her abt the exchange...so i told her ben sent an email...pls check...then with the computer screen facing me...and being the kpo me...i took a peek at the screen. there it was...ben's email...with his message...but i only managed to see the words " DEAR COLLEAGUES, PLEASE READ THE GREAT STORY. there...gladys closed the window.
i believe i was assuming he was talking abt me but well...assumption has got high probability. i was very very tired at all the complaining cos seriously the bag is only 38 bucks! it's not sumthing so expensive that i had to waste so much time and effort to seek redress and make stupid trips down. it's the disappointment in the company that supposedly comes out with good products that serve customer well..and of cos the stain made on my favourite blouse! that blouse is a major deal... it was one of my best blouse...something that i prided on...and definitely something i cannot get again!
there i was deciding to let it go and take in all the faults cos to them i'm juz a crazy fussy customer and the ONLY ONE who complained about that product. i exchanged for a black bag instead...assuming that only my product was faulty.
was taking the bus down from woodlands to granny house today...took out the ipod mini that wy bought...then noticed something different about it...the earphones are a different shade...on closer look i realised that the white earphones have turned a shade grey! and on closer examination, it seems that they have purpled color marks on them...i thought it was my imagination then i took a bit of the earphone and lightly touched the sides of the bag and WALLA! it stained! feeling super grossed out about it...cos u see...i'm a perfectionist and i like things new...esp when the mini is juz a few days old! gross gross gross. now i have off white earphones.
and do u know another of the lame excuses they gave me when i complained abt the bag was ' do u happen to allow rain on the bag' then i was like ' u mean it cannot touch water?' i was thinking what if i perspire...cos it's a gym bag....gross
this is a very long entry and i thank u for reading it...was thinking of letting the matter rest until this ipod incident..why why why...maybe it's my fault for being anxious and grumpy in the beginning...but i really didn't expect something like this (the people and product of fila) to be so disappointing. i have learnt a lesson...never to buy their products..and well..i do squirm when i see ppl using their product..hai...grossed out.
P.S: do u realise i've actually managed to remember all the names??!!! too angry!!! been thru so much shit...hai