Got a package full of Wishes
A Time machine, a Magic Wand
A Globe made out of Gold
No Instructions or Commandments
Laws of Gravity or
Indecisions to uphold
Printed on the box I see
A.C.M.E.'s Build-a-World-to-be
Take a chance - Grab a piece
Help me to believe it
What kind of world do you want?
Think Anything
Let's start at the start
Build a masterpiece
Be careful what you wish for
History starts now...
Should there be people or peoples
Money, Funny pedestals for Fools who never pay
Raise your Army, Choose your Steeple
Don't be shy, the satellites can look the other way
Lose the Earthquakes, Keep the Faults
Fill the oceans without the salt
Let every Man own his own Hand
Can you dig it baby
What kind of world do you want
Think Anything
Let's start at the start
Build a masterpiece
Be careful what you wish for
History starts now...
Sunlight's on the Bridge
Sunlight's on the Way
Tomorrow's Calling
There's more to this than Love
What Kind of world do you want
What Kind of world do you want
What Kind of world do you want
Think Anything
Let's start at the start
Build a masterpiece
History Starts Now
Be careful what you wish for
Start Now
Destination for rants, for raves, for self, and for the people who cared about the puny one in the big big world.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Sunday, August 20, 2006
FAT
Some ppl often commented how conscious I am about my body size. I'm not thin, but I'm not extremely overweight either. Perhaps I should explain a bit why I get seriously worried whenever I seem to put on negligible weight when others feel I still look the same.
Was on the way home from grocery shopping with my parents today when we stopped at a traffic light. My dad pointed to this lady who is walking next to the road and asked me "What will you do if you grown to be her size eventually?" The woman was bigger than me, very much taller too. I said, "I'l never be her size cos she's way taller than me." Knowing my dad was talking about the horizontal size rather than the vertical size, I just wanted the conversation to stop right there. He prompted me again and I just said, "Do you want me to tell you I'll probably die than to have a size like that?" Then he went like, "I'm not saying that." So I said "what's your point in asking that question?"
My mother chirped in and said, "He's saying maybe you should start slimming down a bit if you don't wanna end up like her." She's always like that. Asking me to eat less, do more yoga, things which will make be supermodel like.
My dad defended himself, "I never said that, I was just asking a question." Then I asked again, "What's your point?" Then my mom, being the translator of his heart chirped again, "You are not fat, you are OK, we just think you'll be prettier if you lose that few KGs." Then I said, " You said I am Ok, so why do you want to change how I look now?" Then she went, "You'll look nicer if your tummy was flatter." I just stopped talking.
That is the reason why I am obsessed about my weight. I get this questions from time to time. I even have to suck in my tummy whenever I walk pass them while they are watching TV. I get comments that will drive my whole day to the lowest point just like that. It doesn't mean I'm not happy about how I look. Maybe it just feels how unacceptable they are about how I look. Sometimes I think my parents will be the happiest ppl on earth if they learned I was anorexic.
Seriously, how am I supposed to constantly be unconscious about how my body changes when I have eyes watching me whenever I am relaxing. A tummy out will send tongues wagging. Trust me, I sound exaggerated but it's true. I go my granny house wearing the clothes that cover the essential areas that send ppl talking.
The first thing I get when I reached Singapore from US was my mom saying," I thought you said you didn't eat well over there, I think you came back bigger." What a welcome home speech.
So if you see me not eating, or eating less than usual, please do not comment on me losing weight. I just don't want to gain another pound, only to get more and more depressed with each comment. Worse, please do not tempt me with any food because the consequences are dire. Not me being unhappy about myself, but others being unhappy about how I look.
I was so pissed off after the whole conversation, I just told them they were teaching the wrong things. I wouldn't want my kid to feel unacceptable just because she has more pounds than others. That doesn't make her uglier or more stupid, or someone of bad character. So please think twice before you comment about ppl putting on weight or less weight. Seriously, I don't think it will have any effect on the person's character, on her role as a child, a friend, or a colleague.
My friend once commented that one can never say another person is fat. I was curious and asked why. He said this kind of comments makes one do irrational things which will have serious consequences. I agree. Google karen Carpenters on the web.
I try to not care about how I look, but I need the help of others around. So stop saying I'm conscious when you are the one making my conscious. In fact, some ppl just don't care, and I'm really learning to be someone like that. Maybe my parents should know why I like to hang around with wy more than him. He accepts me way off than them. At least I can sit in front of the tv munching chips the whole day without anyone commenting on how much my tummy is expanding.
Was on the way home from grocery shopping with my parents today when we stopped at a traffic light. My dad pointed to this lady who is walking next to the road and asked me "What will you do if you grown to be her size eventually?" The woman was bigger than me, very much taller too. I said, "I'l never be her size cos she's way taller than me." Knowing my dad was talking about the horizontal size rather than the vertical size, I just wanted the conversation to stop right there. He prompted me again and I just said, "Do you want me to tell you I'll probably die than to have a size like that?" Then he went like, "I'm not saying that." So I said "what's your point in asking that question?"
My mother chirped in and said, "He's saying maybe you should start slimming down a bit if you don't wanna end up like her." She's always like that. Asking me to eat less, do more yoga, things which will make be supermodel like.
My dad defended himself, "I never said that, I was just asking a question." Then I asked again, "What's your point?" Then my mom, being the translator of his heart chirped again, "You are not fat, you are OK, we just think you'll be prettier if you lose that few KGs." Then I said, " You said I am Ok, so why do you want to change how I look now?" Then she went, "You'll look nicer if your tummy was flatter." I just stopped talking.
That is the reason why I am obsessed about my weight. I get this questions from time to time. I even have to suck in my tummy whenever I walk pass them while they are watching TV. I get comments that will drive my whole day to the lowest point just like that. It doesn't mean I'm not happy about how I look. Maybe it just feels how unacceptable they are about how I look. Sometimes I think my parents will be the happiest ppl on earth if they learned I was anorexic.
Seriously, how am I supposed to constantly be unconscious about how my body changes when I have eyes watching me whenever I am relaxing. A tummy out will send tongues wagging. Trust me, I sound exaggerated but it's true. I go my granny house wearing the clothes that cover the essential areas that send ppl talking.
The first thing I get when I reached Singapore from US was my mom saying," I thought you said you didn't eat well over there, I think you came back bigger." What a welcome home speech.
So if you see me not eating, or eating less than usual, please do not comment on me losing weight. I just don't want to gain another pound, only to get more and more depressed with each comment. Worse, please do not tempt me with any food because the consequences are dire. Not me being unhappy about myself, but others being unhappy about how I look.
I was so pissed off after the whole conversation, I just told them they were teaching the wrong things. I wouldn't want my kid to feel unacceptable just because she has more pounds than others. That doesn't make her uglier or more stupid, or someone of bad character. So please think twice before you comment about ppl putting on weight or less weight. Seriously, I don't think it will have any effect on the person's character, on her role as a child, a friend, or a colleague.
My friend once commented that one can never say another person is fat. I was curious and asked why. He said this kind of comments makes one do irrational things which will have serious consequences. I agree. Google karen Carpenters on the web.
I try to not care about how I look, but I need the help of others around. So stop saying I'm conscious when you are the one making my conscious. In fact, some ppl just don't care, and I'm really learning to be someone like that. Maybe my parents should know why I like to hang around with wy more than him. He accepts me way off than them. At least I can sit in front of the tv munching chips the whole day without anyone commenting on how much my tummy is expanding.
Friday, August 11, 2006
Monster
It's funny how big a person will have an impact on yourself when you barely know anything about her. She turned me into a monster and I really really hate her.
Thursday, August 03, 2006
I'm back!
I'm back on the Monday that just passed. Haha.
All in all, this US trip was an exciting yet tiring trip. Seriously, it's more tiring for wenyao than me, haha, with all the constant driving and all!
After school last Monday, wenyao and I took off to the beach. Before that we headed to this hotdog joint called Pink's. This place is a celebrity hotdog point. There's so many celebrity pics inside. Very small place but apparently, their hotdogs have attracted people from all walks of life. They are famous for their chili, which is unlike the chili we have in Singapore. It's more like rendang I should say, only it's not spicy at all!! The thing is, there is no chili in US. The only one we found was chili sauce in a thai restaurant! Not too hot too!
We headed to Santa Monica Beach and Venice Beach after Pink's. Loads of people playing with their dogs, blading, cycling, jogging. All sorts of relaxation you can think of! Something I cannot see in Singapore. It's a Monday and people are so relaxed already. But it's nice to see people having fun despite a weekday. Funny thing in US is, I get alot of smiles from people from time to time. Walking on the street, some will just mutter a "hi" as you walk pass. This is especially true in touristy areas. Most just like to make conversation. Anyone, anywhere. But of course, there are some which are not so friendly. Haha.
On Tuesday, we headed down to Vegas. It was the 25th, so it meant we celebrated our monthsary in Vegas! Haha. The place is seriously sin city! There are so many hispanics giving cards depicting naked women on the streets. They pass it to every guy, even when it's obvious the guys are attached or that they have a wife and kid with them. The hotels are magnificent. All with different themes. I see a whole New York city, lions in the hotel, Greek Gods, and a hotel built like a castle. Even the staff sometimes dress according to the themes!
We watched two shows. These shows cost us abt USD$450 for two persons. I was totally burned from the amount, but thought it was a good experience. (Wenyao paid for lodging, food and fuel, and I paid for car rental and shows.) We watched a Cirque Du Soleil production call Zumanity. It was a show which celebrated sexuality and sensuality, between heterosexuals and homosexuals. We got very good seats! Which means a bountiful showcase of full breasts!!! Haha. Seriously, both of us didn't like the show very much since it focuses too much on free sex. The nudity was not that bad, it just seemed normal after a while. I think it's just the free sex which was emphasized! Got us really really uncomfortable. Since this is an in-house show of the hotel (New York- New York), it actually means this show might not be travelling around. And even if it does, would probably take more than 10 over years. But because of the nudity, I seriously doubt Singapore will allow the crew near its waters. Haha. So we thought it was a good experience!
The next show we watched was Phantom of the Opera! It was good!!!! Our seat was abit obstructed. But I couldn't afford better tickets, so we gotta make use of it. (The ticket I bought was 107 bucks, plus tax was 120 per person!! All in USD!!! The next amount was 137, plus tax would be 150+. Can't affort another 100USD!) But seriously, the price we paid for this show was definitely worth it! The quality of the shows in Vegas are simply great and extensive in terms of production I cannot imagine the shows in Singapore having the same standard. The shows are simply fascinating. Both in terms of props and set. We actually witnessed fireworks inside the theatre during Phantom. I believed my mouth was seriously agap throughout the whole 100 mins of the show! Best part of the shows in Vegas, no 20 mins break in between!
We went to Grand Canyon as well. One of the wonders of the world! The view is spectacular!!! Just standing at the edge leaves you in awe. Of cos, the fear of the danger ahead. The place was so damn hot. Actually the whole of US was hot. I am many shades darker than before. I think wenyao is worse. Although after walking around Grand Canyon for a while, you realise everything looks the same. But somehow, you'll just marvel at the creations right before your eyes! We also stopped at Hoover Dam and Lake Mead along the way. Guess the whole day trip was really fulfilling. Although we slept much of the time on the coach. But but but, we did wake up at the important hours when it comes to sightseeing. Hahaha.
Before we head back to Los Angeles on the third day, we stopped over at this Peggy Sue's Diner for dinner. This place is like a 50s diner. The town is really quiet. They even have a ghost town at the opposite street. We didn't have time to explore it though. This diner is just like the 50s. Even the waitress dress like she was from the 50s. The interior is like the 50s too. We had 50s food, which was hamburgers. Haha, I think US didn't change much in the 50 years! Burgers are here to stay! The meal looked like something from Billy Bombers!
On the last day (Friday), we went to Disneyland. It would be a place I would bring my kids when they are younger. I seemed too old for the rides, but still, that place fascinates me! It's so darling cute! Every shop is so cartoony. I took some rides, including pirates of the caribean, Haunted Mansion, etc etc. The rides are cute but super creative! Quite an eye opener really. These rides are just rides to showcase the themes, not adventure rides. They do have thrilling rides, but it's in the opposite park, need to pay another 30USD to enter. Plus I don't like thrills so it's just a total waste of money. The entrance for Disneyland is already 50USD. Everything here is seriously expensive!
Packed my bags and headed home on the Saturday afternoon on US time. The ride back was long as usual. Watched like 4 movies! Haha. Slept only for 2 hours! Bad thing about sitting in the window seat - I have to ration my drinking. Because I can't go to the toilet! The moment the women beside me stood up to the ladies, I hurried after them! Haha. Seriously, travelling on the plane alone is really really fun. These are the lists of movies I watched during the round trip plane ride.
1) She's the man (It's funny, recommended)
2) I not stupid 2 (This is a goooooood show! Laffed and cried. I think I freaked the Indian man beside me!)
3) Aquamarine (Teenage flick, watch it to waste time)
4) Half of Benchwarmers (it sucks big time!)
5) Crazy First Love (Nice romantic show!)
6) Back to school (Tao xue wei long...old school laff)
7) R.V. (Not bad, not too funny)
8) Thank you for not smoking (watched 1/4, too much talking)
9) I think there's one or two I couldn't quite remember. Haha.
My photos are uploaded too. It's right at this website. http://cards.webshots.com/invite/pickup/119562931HuMK/album/552706999MiINid
You can note down comments if you want =)
Haa, I think this trip is fun. Would wanna try doing a roadtrip with a couple of friends too. That is provided I managed to save enough again!! This trip totally burnt a big hole in my pocket. My savings are all gone! But still, it was worth it. Good experience!
All in all, this US trip was an exciting yet tiring trip. Seriously, it's more tiring for wenyao than me, haha, with all the constant driving and all!
After school last Monday, wenyao and I took off to the beach. Before that we headed to this hotdog joint called Pink's. This place is a celebrity hotdog point. There's so many celebrity pics inside. Very small place but apparently, their hotdogs have attracted people from all walks of life. They are famous for their chili, which is unlike the chili we have in Singapore. It's more like rendang I should say, only it's not spicy at all!! The thing is, there is no chili in US. The only one we found was chili sauce in a thai restaurant! Not too hot too!
We headed to Santa Monica Beach and Venice Beach after Pink's. Loads of people playing with their dogs, blading, cycling, jogging. All sorts of relaxation you can think of! Something I cannot see in Singapore. It's a Monday and people are so relaxed already. But it's nice to see people having fun despite a weekday. Funny thing in US is, I get alot of smiles from people from time to time. Walking on the street, some will just mutter a "hi" as you walk pass. This is especially true in touristy areas. Most just like to make conversation. Anyone, anywhere. But of course, there are some which are not so friendly. Haha.
On Tuesday, we headed down to Vegas. It was the 25th, so it meant we celebrated our monthsary in Vegas! Haha. The place is seriously sin city! There are so many hispanics giving cards depicting naked women on the streets. They pass it to every guy, even when it's obvious the guys are attached or that they have a wife and kid with them. The hotels are magnificent. All with different themes. I see a whole New York city, lions in the hotel, Greek Gods, and a hotel built like a castle. Even the staff sometimes dress according to the themes!
We watched two shows. These shows cost us abt USD$450 for two persons. I was totally burned from the amount, but thought it was a good experience. (Wenyao paid for lodging, food and fuel, and I paid for car rental and shows.) We watched a Cirque Du Soleil production call Zumanity. It was a show which celebrated sexuality and sensuality, between heterosexuals and homosexuals. We got very good seats! Which means a bountiful showcase of full breasts!!! Haha. Seriously, both of us didn't like the show very much since it focuses too much on free sex. The nudity was not that bad, it just seemed normal after a while. I think it's just the free sex which was emphasized! Got us really really uncomfortable. Since this is an in-house show of the hotel (New York- New York), it actually means this show might not be travelling around. And even if it does, would probably take more than 10 over years. But because of the nudity, I seriously doubt Singapore will allow the crew near its waters. Haha. So we thought it was a good experience!
The next show we watched was Phantom of the Opera! It was good!!!! Our seat was abit obstructed. But I couldn't afford better tickets, so we gotta make use of it. (The ticket I bought was 107 bucks, plus tax was 120 per person!! All in USD!!! The next amount was 137, plus tax would be 150+. Can't affort another 100USD!) But seriously, the price we paid for this show was definitely worth it! The quality of the shows in Vegas are simply great and extensive in terms of production I cannot imagine the shows in Singapore having the same standard. The shows are simply fascinating. Both in terms of props and set. We actually witnessed fireworks inside the theatre during Phantom. I believed my mouth was seriously agap throughout the whole 100 mins of the show! Best part of the shows in Vegas, no 20 mins break in between!
We went to Grand Canyon as well. One of the wonders of the world! The view is spectacular!!! Just standing at the edge leaves you in awe. Of cos, the fear of the danger ahead. The place was so damn hot. Actually the whole of US was hot. I am many shades darker than before. I think wenyao is worse. Although after walking around Grand Canyon for a while, you realise everything looks the same. But somehow, you'll just marvel at the creations right before your eyes! We also stopped at Hoover Dam and Lake Mead along the way. Guess the whole day trip was really fulfilling. Although we slept much of the time on the coach. But but but, we did wake up at the important hours when it comes to sightseeing. Hahaha.
Before we head back to Los Angeles on the third day, we stopped over at this Peggy Sue's Diner for dinner. This place is like a 50s diner. The town is really quiet. They even have a ghost town at the opposite street. We didn't have time to explore it though. This diner is just like the 50s. Even the waitress dress like she was from the 50s. The interior is like the 50s too. We had 50s food, which was hamburgers. Haha, I think US didn't change much in the 50 years! Burgers are here to stay! The meal looked like something from Billy Bombers!
On the last day (Friday), we went to Disneyland. It would be a place I would bring my kids when they are younger. I seemed too old for the rides, but still, that place fascinates me! It's so darling cute! Every shop is so cartoony. I took some rides, including pirates of the caribean, Haunted Mansion, etc etc. The rides are cute but super creative! Quite an eye opener really. These rides are just rides to showcase the themes, not adventure rides. They do have thrilling rides, but it's in the opposite park, need to pay another 30USD to enter. Plus I don't like thrills so it's just a total waste of money. The entrance for Disneyland is already 50USD. Everything here is seriously expensive!
Packed my bags and headed home on the Saturday afternoon on US time. The ride back was long as usual. Watched like 4 movies! Haha. Slept only for 2 hours! Bad thing about sitting in the window seat - I have to ration my drinking. Because I can't go to the toilet! The moment the women beside me stood up to the ladies, I hurried after them! Haha. Seriously, travelling on the plane alone is really really fun. These are the lists of movies I watched during the round trip plane ride.
1) She's the man (It's funny, recommended)
2) I not stupid 2 (This is a goooooood show! Laffed and cried. I think I freaked the Indian man beside me!)
3) Aquamarine (Teenage flick, watch it to waste time)
4) Half of Benchwarmers (it sucks big time!)
5) Crazy First Love (Nice romantic show!)
6) Back to school (Tao xue wei long...old school laff)
7) R.V. (Not bad, not too funny)
8) Thank you for not smoking (watched 1/4, too much talking)
9) I think there's one or two I couldn't quite remember. Haha.
My photos are uploaded too. It's right at this website. http://cards.webshots.com/invite/pickup/119562931HuMK/album/552706999MiINid
You can note down comments if you want =)
Haa, I think this trip is fun. Would wanna try doing a roadtrip with a couple of friends too. That is provided I managed to save enough again!! This trip totally burnt a big hole in my pocket. My savings are all gone! But still, it was worth it. Good experience!