i think i failed.

a relationship is really weird.
a few night of insomnia and nightmares to realise juz how right i was.
sometimes i wish i weren't this accurate.
why can't i be wrong.

when a partner falls for another
the heart is shared by two person.
it's like sharing a bunk...when someone u dunno barges in and messes ur pte life
things get hazy.
it gets abit of getting used to, that the room is no longer urs alone.

when the person leaves, it doesn't solves anything.
because u were made to share the room with her b4.
gross.

she said 我加上你两个人并不等于我们
i said i wanna wake up from this nightmare, only to find that the nightmare is the reality.
he said nothing.

i never felt a heartache this deep. think i lost something really important to me.
qijia said i would break if he would ever leave me, he's so right. why can't he be wrong? why can't i be wrong? why is everyone wrong?

i can forget. i told him i can forget. used to gloat at gers who does that. but i can't help staring into space everytime i'm alone. i'm like in my own world. truth is i cannot forget. not his fault, but mine.

the heartache is killing me. we pretended nothing happened. i cannot forget. i can't stop crying. i feel so drained out. i can't sleep. i want to go back to the past. i can't share him with other ppl. i feel for the ger. i go crazy when i'm alone. i don't want to feel this way. what did i do wrong? what went wrong?

wrecked. everything.