Can't believe the year pass so fast. It definitely wasn't a breeze. I wouldn't say any year was a breeze. In fact, I seem to get even more depress towards the end of the year which I'm not sure why. Every year it seems to get more depressing. It's like counting down to the day you die. One year passed and I looked back with nice memories, only to be overwhelmed by the fact that nice things finish fast and bad things might come even faster. The funny thing about this year end is, I found myself thinking which are the places where there might be terrorist attacks or natural disasters. Call me a pessimist. Or maybe the resultant effect of holiday blues. Either way, I just don't feel good about year endings.
This year has definitely been overwhelming, and I thought 2004 was overwhelming enough. Hah. But sad to say, this year hasn't been really that positive. There were so many depressing months and I think there might be more to come.
This is what happened personally for year 2005:
1) Celebrated my 22nd birthday --> March 22nd, so 22nd birthday seemed significant.
2) Graduated from NUS
3) Visited Bangkok
4) Went China and conquered the Great Wall of China
5) Started on my first job
6) Got my first pay of $10000, but pity, I didn't save any. Well, maybe next year.
7) Left Ridge View Residences, aka, EA (I still miss it!)
8) Shopped at G2000 for shirts and pants
9) Pass my Driving (never in my life I think I would pass!)
10) Baptism of my paternal grandparents
11) Death of my beloved Grandpa
12) Experienced God's Miracles
13) Fattest weight I ever been ---> 51.5kg (damn!)
14) Celebrated my 5th year with Wenyao
15) Bought my first digital camera
16) Cousin Kai-ian was born
Just to note, only those which are in bold are events that are worth smiling about. The rest are well..quite sucky. I'm sure there are many more things i did this year but I just couldn't remember them, or at least too depressing to even list them out. Yeah, so that's about it. Not going for countdown or spending the eve with anyone.
All in all, I do think this is a depressing year. I feel so boring I would kill myself to spend my entire life with this sort of person. Gross. 'Happy' New Year everyone!
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Comments
Can someone pls comment on my interpersonal/communication skills? You may be vicious and blunt.
Friday, December 16, 2005
Photos! (Finally...=))
Took a 3 day leave from Monday to Wednesday this week. Photos are finally uploaded. Haha..a good time to test out my camera. Some other photos are still in another card...I actually brought out the 16MB card that came with the camera! haha. Shall post the rest later. Here's a few on East Coast Picnic!
Breakfast at the coffee shop
That's the problem going out as a couple. Always solo picture. It's either me or him. hahaha. Same breakfast at the coffee shop!
On the way to East Coast. A desperate attempt to put my face in the picture. There! A 2 person pic..the only one actually. Hahaha.
Picnic!
Our food! All prepared by the Queen in the next pic!
The Queen with the cutesy hotdog!
The zebra with his hotdog..hahaha...jk
Picture taken lying in the sun(shade)..haha.
A little burnt after blading..fun!
Going home pics! Check out the skyline. Beautiful!
ok Next!
I decided to lump all the pics together...here's what I took this morning at the office.
Introducing Mini Zee!
Mini Zee(bra). Haha!
Pretty Zee and dashing Zee. Hahaha.
Wenyao faking it at the workplace. Hahaha..secretly took one.
Did I ever say my workplace is like a battlefield? It's either kill or be killed (office politics!) Initially it was like this...
Then it became like this...
ie..many ppl involve. Hahaha!
Breakfast at the coffee shop
That's the problem going out as a couple. Always solo picture. It's either me or him. hahaha. Same breakfast at the coffee shop!
On the way to East Coast. A desperate attempt to put my face in the picture. There! A 2 person pic..the only one actually. Hahaha.
Picnic!
Our food! All prepared by the Queen in the next pic!
The Queen with the cutesy hotdog!
The zebra with his hotdog..hahaha...jk
Picture taken lying in the sun(shade)..haha.
A little burnt after blading..fun!
Going home pics! Check out the skyline. Beautiful!
ok Next!
I decided to lump all the pics together...here's what I took this morning at the office.
Introducing Mini Zee!
Mini Zee(bra). Haha!
Pretty Zee and dashing Zee. Hahaha.
Wenyao faking it at the workplace. Hahaha..secretly took one.
Did I ever say my workplace is like a battlefield? It's either kill or be killed (office politics!) Initially it was like this...
Then it became like this...
ie..many ppl involve. Hahaha!
Thursday, December 15, 2005
My kind of coffee
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Well...a step further to know how's the real McCoy like.
The Real McCoy
Which is the real me?
The one at work.
The one with my family.
The one with Wenyao.
The one with my friends.
The one when I'm by myself.
Or is it the one that has the combination of all? So it probably means I'm faking it part of the time when I'm with people.
Gross.
Which is the real me then?
The one at work.
The one with my family.
The one with Wenyao.
The one with my friends.
The one when I'm by myself.
Or is it the one that has the combination of all? So it probably means I'm faking it part of the time when I'm with people.
Gross.
Which is the real me then?
Thursday, December 08, 2005
Hoooo...
Not sure what to write for the title but I got something BIG to announce. Wenyao is now my colleague! First time working with him...haha..thought will be exciting..but not at all. It's just the same. Hoo..
He's working as a temp here but he sure is more serious than the full time worker typing here. hahaha.
Hai...I feel so sleepy I want to sing out loud to keep me awake. At least work will be like ktv session, something a little more fun! Haha. Feel abit gien to sing along with the songs in my ipod. Gross. I can only mouth them out. At least when I work from home I sing out loud, to keep myself awake. Bad for my brother's ears but good for my energy. hahaha.
Blabbering blabbering blabbering.
Hooo...(crap!)
He's working as a temp here but he sure is more serious than the full time worker typing here. hahaha.
Hai...I feel so sleepy I want to sing out loud to keep me awake. At least work will be like ktv session, something a little more fun! Haha. Feel abit gien to sing along with the songs in my ipod. Gross. I can only mouth them out. At least when I work from home I sing out loud, to keep myself awake. Bad for my brother's ears but good for my energy. hahaha.
Blabbering blabbering blabbering.
Hooo...(crap!)
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Dying
Hey ppl,
I may not have so much time left on earth. In fact, I think I may be dying soon. Never in my life have I seen so many arrows in my direction. All sharp and destined to hit the bull's eye.
The Boss should try going for the SEA games or the Olympics. The game will be won by him. Hahaha.
In case I died sooner. Everyone... I love u.
*This entry is written during a period where the writer is going through a pre-death withdrawal syndrome* =p
I may not have so much time left on earth. In fact, I think I may be dying soon. Never in my life have I seen so many arrows in my direction. All sharp and destined to hit the bull's eye.
The Boss should try going for the SEA games or the Olympics. The game will be won by him. Hahaha.
In case I died sooner. Everyone... I love u.
*This entry is written during a period where the writer is going through a pre-death withdrawal syndrome* =p
Sports Club
Couldn't sleep, kept having a nagging feeling of something amiss. Suddenly remembered the cd jeanette gave to each of us during her bday. Took out the cd and started watching (first time watching to be exact)...saw all the crazy things that we did during the time when we were running MC. Cannot imagine doing those things now, just didn't seem right. Or is it because the crowd is no longer the same, setting different as well.
Think my whole NUS life was almost affliated with sports club. Got into windsurfing at a tender age of 19, scrapped myself dry going to east coast three times a week just so that the club can earn money! hahaha. Bus ride is 90 mins, plus the early wake ups and bus fare (which sadly, cannot be claimed..).
Joined sports club in year two, although it stopped b4 I took my last endearing step into year 3, the hostel was like a mini sports club. So many of us were staying there, meetups still often. Hai. Those were the days.
Great...I can't sleep and I m reminising. Goodness...is there someone who is feeling like me now? I miss playing whose line. I think I lost the vibe.
Think my whole NUS life was almost affliated with sports club. Got into windsurfing at a tender age of 19, scrapped myself dry going to east coast three times a week just so that the club can earn money! hahaha. Bus ride is 90 mins, plus the early wake ups and bus fare (which sadly, cannot be claimed..).
Joined sports club in year two, although it stopped b4 I took my last endearing step into year 3, the hostel was like a mini sports club. So many of us were staying there, meetups still often. Hai. Those were the days.
Great...I can't sleep and I m reminising. Goodness...is there someone who is feeling like me now? I miss playing whose line. I think I lost the vibe.
Monday, December 05, 2005
Hahahaha...arrgh!
I have every reason to believe I'm turning to be very optimistic! Was staring at my reflection in the train for the whole of the trip from Raffles Place to Bukit Batok, when a thought struck me. "What just happened today besides work today?"
Being the very 'optimistic' me. This thought just flashed momentarily in my face: One day down to retirement!
What a goal. Lifetime goal somemore. I was still thinking I was goaless this morning. Oh man.
Being the very 'optimistic' me. This thought just flashed momentarily in my face: One day down to retirement!
What a goal. Lifetime goal somemore. I was still thinking I was goaless this morning. Oh man.
Work
Got this poem from Alice's blog. Nice love poem.
"Love Story of Work"
Monday waits for Wednesday
But Wednesday only cares about Friday
And Friday loves Saturday
While Saturday's brother, Sunday, avoids Monday
Inspired by her, I began a search (with the help of my colleague) of another literary work.
"Office Prayer"
Dear Lord,
Grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change
The courage
To change the things I cannot accept,
And the Wisdom
To hide the bodies of those people
I had to kill today because they pissed me off.
And also,
Help me to be careful of the toes I step on today
As they maybe connected to the ass
That I might have to kiss tomorrow
Yeaps...what a way to express office politics. A great "Work" of art!
Whoever said work was mundane? Work is so 'expressive' after all! Hah.
"Love Story of Work"
Monday waits for Wednesday
But Wednesday only cares about Friday
And Friday loves Saturday
While Saturday's brother, Sunday, avoids Monday
Inspired by her, I began a search (with the help of my colleague) of another literary work.
"Office Prayer"
Dear Lord,
Grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change
The courage
To change the things I cannot accept,
And the Wisdom
To hide the bodies of those people
I had to kill today because they pissed me off.
And also,
Help me to be careful of the toes I step on today
As they maybe connected to the ass
That I might have to kiss tomorrow
Yeaps...what a way to express office politics. A great "Work" of art!
Whoever said work was mundane? Work is so 'expressive' after all! Hah.
Saturday, December 03, 2005
When in Rome, do as Romans do
Nguyen Tuong Van's name has been mentioned ever so recently by the press lately. Sadly his end came to a stop yesterday. Saw Straits Times reporting an article that australia is divided into two with two differing opinions. One who's against the death penalty and one who's for the death penalty.
Read through the comments from this link :http://news.ninemsn.com.au/article.aspx?id=75556 , got kinda of mixed up after that. The whole scenario is sad, I do agree. Who doesn't feel a pinch of emotion when you know someone is going to die and you can't stop it. But as far as I'm concerned, death penalty may not be the most humane methods of punishment, but to be objective, the problem here lies in the fact that death penalty for drug trafficking in Singapore will lead to corporal punishment, and if you traffic drugs, you have to bear the consequences.
Some say he didn't have a choice because he was trying to raise funds to repay debts, but I guess by going through the trafficking routine, he should probably know there's a chance of getting caught. If not, why would someone pay you such a huge amount to drug traffic? I believe he should have done his homework before taking such a huge risk, especially by taking his chances to go through customs in countries with capital punishments. I wouldn't think he would assume he wouldn't get caught no matter what.
Some of the comments said how Singapore is so inhumane, barbaric etc etc. Came to one anti-death penalty's comment. I guess the sentence he/she wrote kind of struck me.
"I have read a number of feedbacks. Though opinions are varied, there are really just two groups of people; one who respect life and the other who doesn't."
By saying death penalty is not a form of respect for human lives, what about saying him bringing 26000 doses of heroin to his destination? Is that a form of respect for lives as well? Drugs lead to bad consequences, I just can't imagine how many will be affected by the 26000 doses of drugs. Has he any respect for human life as well? I don't believe that ever crossed his mind.
But I guess I felt kinda proud being a Singaporean in a sense. The country hasn't shifted its decision from pressure of a bigger country. Every house has its own rules, you just have to abide by them. Like one commenter said, "When in Rome, do as Romans do". There were rules, but he just chose to break it. So don't blame the rules, the choice was given, but the decision was his.
Read through the comments from this link :http://news.ninemsn.com.au/article.aspx?id=75556 , got kinda of mixed up after that. The whole scenario is sad, I do agree. Who doesn't feel a pinch of emotion when you know someone is going to die and you can't stop it. But as far as I'm concerned, death penalty may not be the most humane methods of punishment, but to be objective, the problem here lies in the fact that death penalty for drug trafficking in Singapore will lead to corporal punishment, and if you traffic drugs, you have to bear the consequences.
Some say he didn't have a choice because he was trying to raise funds to repay debts, but I guess by going through the trafficking routine, he should probably know there's a chance of getting caught. If not, why would someone pay you such a huge amount to drug traffic? I believe he should have done his homework before taking such a huge risk, especially by taking his chances to go through customs in countries with capital punishments. I wouldn't think he would assume he wouldn't get caught no matter what.
Some of the comments said how Singapore is so inhumane, barbaric etc etc. Came to one anti-death penalty's comment. I guess the sentence he/she wrote kind of struck me.
"I have read a number of feedbacks. Though opinions are varied, there are really just two groups of people; one who respect life and the other who doesn't."
By saying death penalty is not a form of respect for human lives, what about saying him bringing 26000 doses of heroin to his destination? Is that a form of respect for lives as well? Drugs lead to bad consequences, I just can't imagine how many will be affected by the 26000 doses of drugs. Has he any respect for human life as well? I don't believe that ever crossed his mind.
But I guess I felt kinda proud being a Singaporean in a sense. The country hasn't shifted its decision from pressure of a bigger country. Every house has its own rules, you just have to abide by them. Like one commenter said, "When in Rome, do as Romans do". There were rules, but he just chose to break it. So don't blame the rules, the choice was given, but the decision was his.