insecurity

think i am feeling like this.
not sure why.
or maybe i do but i'm juzt not telling.

it feels like defeat.
it has the taste of failure,
and certainly smelt like disappointment.

it means something's gonna be taken away.
and it also means that nothing new is coming along.
it is same and different oxymoronically.

i can tell u one thing is for sure.
it doesn't feel good.
time will tell if the future is bleak or promising,
and patience will only lengthen the dread.
hastiness then? i guess it leads nowhere.

time is not on my side.
in fact, almost nothing is.
except a few.
the uncertainty. the lost and of course, the insecurity.