consternation

seriously why do ppl have relationships when they can't afford the time?

that comes into another question...why do we need a relationship for?
marriage maybe?

then wad's the point of continuing when one is bz enough even without a relationship.
therefore would it be better to start at a later age? then again, u'll realise the person might not be the one that u've always wanted. n the worse case is wad if the person is the one in front of you right now? but what if he isn't the one at all?

is it true that if one can live without another for a period of time, life will juz continue? or maybe that will be a regret all ur life? or perhaps u could juz be left on the shelf if u lose this one?

pessimistic u say. yeah i agree. but i feel i'm dealing with it in an optimistic way. come on...it's not like i've been crying for days. wierd in a sense...no tears! how amazing is that?

so is it time to move on? or is this juz a phase that all couples will go through once in a while. but y do i feel it's different this time? no tears no anger...tat's a hot issue man!

no anger...but there is great disappointment. so much that i find there is no need for me to say anything. nothing. niente. nitchs.

why should i desert my life juz for a relationship. isn't that suppose to be mutual if there was justification for that? why shd i be the one sitting sulkily at home alone? why shd i discard wadever friendships i have juz because i ought to? why shd i be the one being condemned when u shd be the one quitting the goody image? what have i missed?

n the waiting...why am i always waiting? do u actually have to wait for me to be ready? do i deserve this?

i guessed i shd have bitched this out long ago b4 now. isn't it too late? a few yrs already rite? well, but then again...there will always be justifications for wad u did...cos i realised no matter how much i feel...it won't ever be compared to urs. says who u ask? says u and everybody else.

so guess wad? i'm finally gonna shut up and get my life back!