Wednesday

just came back from west coast...had some fun over at the playground
imagine 8 ppl in their 20s fooling around..
climbed a pyramid...could actually feel the fear...
haha...used to be more courageous in the past...mellowed down into a mouse
was lying there against the sky and feeling really relaxed..
when my mind start fooling around again..
guess it cannot listen to its owner..
tot the day would be different..
perhaps a happier wednesday...
but when things die down and u're alone in your room again...i guess that's not the case
i'm feeling nonchalant
almost sense-less
perhaps just a longing...
for things to get better again..
or perhaps things were wrong in the past..
hence this.
what is the right way then?
do you know? do i?
or am i just ignoring myself.
mind's not listening to its owner again i guess.