a piss-ful entry

disclaimer: this blog entry is targeted to piss those who are reading...so read if u can take the caustic substance typed.

i have been bumming around and i totally hate that feeling. what's worse is the questions of asking 'hey have u found a job?' try asking that to a person who have heard it umpteen times (e.g. zee) u are most likely to hear a 'no' with a #$%^&%^&* going inside her head which u are unlikely to hear or know...but most likely remembered!

i feel pinched whenever ppl ask me why am i bumming around...i feel jabbed whenever ppl tell me to try harder...i feel murderous when ppl say i think too highly of myself. in refute of all these..they are all wrong! so nonid to ask me anymore.

next! got a fren asked others to pass around this message...recommend a potential prudential advisor to go for a 2 day training and get 50 bucks recommendation fee. good money right? yes yes...but very unethical! got calls from ppl all asking me to be advisor...i'm not a selling thing material...tried and tested so dun even try that stinch on me. if u ever u r not a fren(does not include the one who pass to me..)! frens of mine shd noe how against i am with this line...the unethical way of telling u to come down for interview saying they are offering non sales job which in fact, they are headhunting for advisors is enough to piss me off, what is worse is the substitution of terms like business marketing exec and business financial exec to
mist the true nature of the job scope!!! grrr..

don't u noe that financial advisors work on networking. imagine someone like me with limited network...who will i approach? u u u!!! and whom am i likely to be rejected? u u u!!! so i am helping u by not going to work as that...tell me...r u close to anyone who's a financial advisor or MLM marketer? u get me in u get 50 bucks...but is that 50 bucks worth the pestering u get from me to buy insurance or the rejection that my sorely heart will get from ya?

i m having a bad time bumming around so don't think i am enjoying every moment of the slacking. it's not like i have money falling from my ceiling assumed by some. so please do not profile me like what u r doing. it hurts inside..but sadly the insensitive nature of some is unable to tell.

so if u see me on the streets, please do not judge me by my presence in orchard road by bumming...unemployed does not mean no life...i still have a life and i want a life. so please do not judge me on that once again...thanks fren! and if i reject going out with u...i m juz trying to minimised the suffering my heart has to take for the past few weeks. contact makes the heart ache longer! pardon me if i rescheduled lunch/dinner with u...does not mean i hate u or i m boiling mad....but it may juz mean i like to be alone, i've grown used to talking to the wall, or maybe u have a job and i dun want to feel left out talking to u.

aniwaez..as mentioned this msg is to piss ppl off..but they are not targeted at any one in particular, juz a general view. so if u think u know anyone who's above-mentioned, pls keep your mouth shut...cos it does not refer to that particular person who is appearing in ur mind.

alrite..this entry is written at the very bad period of my life. so please do not profile me according to that! this is juz a cry of outburst due to the insensitivities faced by my broken heart, which has now cease to feel anything, judging from the bluntness that others have felt from me. i am sorry but pls understand.

lastly, thank you for those who have finally endured this caustic and snappy entry. don't worry u r still a fren, although i may be holding grudge over what u said to me recently. u noe who u r... (hahaha..gotcha! juz kidding!)

i m tired and ugly and fat and that's what making this worse. alrite thanks for the time and goodbye (for a long long time till i find a job will i see u again!)