Please stop!

stop everything!!! just stop everything!
i don't wanna go out. i don't wanna talk.
stop asking me to eat. stop asking me out. stop making me tok. stop touching me. stop saying hi. stop buying me food. stop buying me things. stop giving me money. stop smiling at me. stop trying. stop trying to do everything. i don't want anything. let me be alone! i want to be alone! i want to stay alone! i just want to be in my room. don't do anything. please stop. just stop. don't hug me. don't hold me. don't ask me anything. don't contact me. stop having to do anything with me. i just want everything to stop. everybody please stop. i want to be alone. stop obliging. stop agreeing. stop everything. stop trying to smile when u don't want to. stop lying. stop behaving like a clown. i feel like the clown. stop all the stupid lies. stop the care. stop the concern. i hate it.
pretend i don't exist. pretend i'm not around. pretend there's no such person. pretend i'm non-existent. pretend i don't stay in sch. pretend i'm uncontactable. pretend i'm dead.
i want to sleep. i miss sleeping. why can't i sleep? i want the thoughts to stop. i want everything to stop. i want to rest. i'm very tired. i don't want to smile. i don't want to act like a clown. i don't want to be a burden. i don't want to laugh. i don't want to cry. i don't want to frown. i just want to be alone. please please leave me alone. everyone. no-one. anybody.