Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Strange
Like the herd animals we are, we sniff warily at the strange one among us - Loren Corey Eiseley
Monday, May 26, 2008
Bah!
Dee dee dee dee...
decided not,
on things to follow,
to do or not.
Bee bee bee bee...
Believing fears,
crumbling, tumbling,
breathing sheared.
Fa fa fa fa...
Far from calm,
far from young,
not far from harm.
Re re re re...
regarding this,
time to control,
not time to risk.
Perhaps
A
Non-
Intrusive
Coming
Another
Torpedo
Taking
A
Confused
Kin.
Breathe!
decided not,
on things to follow,
to do or not.
Bee bee bee bee...
Believing fears,
crumbling, tumbling,
breathing sheared.
Fa fa fa fa...
Far from calm,
far from young,
not far from harm.
Re re re re...
regarding this,
time to control,
not time to risk.
Perhaps
A
Non-
Intrusive
Coming
Another
Torpedo
Taking
A
Confused
Kin.
Breathe!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Faith
Matthew 17:20
He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.
He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.
Friday, April 25, 2008
Ning
If you were here,
would things still be the same?
Or would we still take life for granted?
If you were here,
would the sky seemed bluer?
Or would the clouds be laced with thunder?
If you were here,
would pink still be your favourite color?
Or would you prefer the color a shade darker?
If you were here,
would you be kinder?
Or would adolescence at fifteen years make you tougher?
Seven years on,
with your presence gone.
I think you'd hoped,
to be able to make me happier.
Seven years on,
we have moved along.
This journey of life,
this life which should be part yours.
Seven years on,
you are with God.
A place we trust,
the pain no longer borne.
Seven years on,
I have moved along.
But you are still deeply missed,
by us all.
Miss you lots.
would things still be the same?
Or would we still take life for granted?
If you were here,
would the sky seemed bluer?
Or would the clouds be laced with thunder?
If you were here,
would pink still be your favourite color?
Or would you prefer the color a shade darker?
If you were here,
would you be kinder?
Or would adolescence at fifteen years make you tougher?
Seven years on,
with your presence gone.
I think you'd hoped,
to be able to make me happier.
Seven years on,
we have moved along.
This journey of life,
this life which should be part yours.
Seven years on,
you are with God.
A place we trust,
the pain no longer borne.
Seven years on,
I have moved along.
But you are still deeply missed,
by us all.
Miss you lots.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
JackieFruit
Jackie goes to market
with Mom buying bucket
(loads of stuffs).
Passing by the fruit seller,
who sells guava for a dollar
(and five apples for that amount).
Mom stops to choose,
Jackie starts to muse
(her many child-like troubles).
Like Fifty cents for an ice-cream,
or five ice-sticks
(which are ten-cents each).
An aroma drifted,
across her silly ponderings
(of sweet snacks for keeps).
The fruit seller was cutting,
this curiously shaped thing
(like the biggest fruit she'd seen)!
Smells like sour honey,
sticky with white coating
(of bright orange fruit for treat)!
Mom says it's Jackfruit
but it's Jackiefruit she thinks
(her very own fruit with her name).
Mom says it's an exotic fruit
what's that, she thinks
(but good enough, they are special things).
Off to home after, with a Jackiefruit in tow,
Hand in hand, mother and daughter stroll
Down the market place and in time,
A Jackiefruit, their common buy.
with Mom buying bucket
(loads of stuffs).
Passing by the fruit seller,
who sells guava for a dollar
(and five apples for that amount).
Mom stops to choose,
Jackie starts to muse
(her many child-like troubles).
Like Fifty cents for an ice-cream,
or five ice-sticks
(which are ten-cents each).
An aroma drifted,
across her silly ponderings
(of sweet snacks for keeps).
The fruit seller was cutting,
this curiously shaped thing
(like the biggest fruit she'd seen)!
Smells like sour honey,
sticky with white coating
(of bright orange fruit for treat)!
Mom says it's Jackfruit
but it's Jackiefruit she thinks
(her very own fruit with her name).
Mom says it's an exotic fruit
what's that, she thinks
(but good enough, they are special things).
Off to home after, with a Jackiefruit in tow,
Hand in hand, mother and daughter stroll
Down the market place and in time,
A Jackiefruit, their common buy.
Monday, February 04, 2008
The best love letter
I can listen no longer in silence. I must speak to you by such means as are within my reach. You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it, eight years and a half ago. Dare not say that man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have been, weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant. You alone have brought me to Bath. For you alone, I think and plan. Have you not seen this? Can you fail to have understood my wishes? I had not waited even these ten days, could I have read your feelings, as I think you must have penetrated mine. I can hardly write. I am every instant hearing something which overpowers me. You sink your voice, but I can distinguish the tones of that voice when they could be lost on others. Too good, too excellent creature! You do us justice, indeed. You do believe that there is true attachment and constancy among men. Believe it to be most fervent, most undeviating, in
F.W
I must go, uncertain of my fate; but I shall return hither, or follow your party, as soon as possible. A word, a look, will be enough to decide whether I enter your father's house this evening or never.
----- Persuasion, Jane Austen
F.W
I must go, uncertain of my fate; but I shall return hither, or follow your party, as soon as possible. A word, a look, will be enough to decide whether I enter your father's house this evening or never.
----- Persuasion, Jane Austen
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Monster being
My head is spinning,
Round and round it goes.
My thoughts swirled,
Cotton candy-like rolls,
Fluffy and soft.
I used to stand at the window,
Waving goodbye as you go.
Down the stretch of road,
Leading to the block,
Until you disappear beneath the shadows.
I used to be kind,
Smiling at people as they go by.
Looking at every angle,
Considering beauty in its kind.
When did the niceness fly by?
Love has gone away,
An ominous darkness looms.
Patience for people, well-meaning wishes,
Gone in a twist, in its absence,
A stronghold of anger.
Not myself, I used to think.
Growing self, a frightful jinx.
A being, molded hard by intolerable souls.
A body, tousled and tramped by the world's unknown.
Still stuggling to find the real me.
Round and round it goes.
My thoughts swirled,
Cotton candy-like rolls,
Fluffy and soft.
I used to stand at the window,
Waving goodbye as you go.
Down the stretch of road,
Leading to the block,
Until you disappear beneath the shadows.
I used to be kind,
Smiling at people as they go by.
Looking at every angle,
Considering beauty in its kind.
When did the niceness fly by?
Love has gone away,
An ominous darkness looms.
Patience for people, well-meaning wishes,
Gone in a twist, in its absence,
A stronghold of anger.
Not myself, I used to think.
Growing self, a frightful jinx.
A being, molded hard by intolerable souls.
A body, tousled and tramped by the world's unknown.
Still stuggling to find the real me.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
The Longest Journey Ever
I took a cab today,
Through a taxi call-line.
The location was clear,
But the driver was a million steps away,
It was the longest journey ever.
The interior was cold and musty,
Trapped in a hollow of misery.
Medicated oil stank the air,
I rolled the windows down,
It was the longest journey ever.
Thoughts of the day thundered.
A meaningless day at work(?)
A fulfilling time at the office(?)
What's to ponder, what's to feel.
It was the longest journey ever.
The wind blew in,
Fiercely discouraging, entangling my being.
Living a purposeful life,
Is what I hope in plenty.
It will be the longest journey ever.
Through a taxi call-line.
The location was clear,
But the driver was a million steps away,
It was the longest journey ever.
The interior was cold and musty,
Trapped in a hollow of misery.
Medicated oil stank the air,
I rolled the windows down,
It was the longest journey ever.
Thoughts of the day thundered.
A meaningless day at work(?)
A fulfilling time at the office(?)
What's to ponder, what's to feel.
It was the longest journey ever.
The wind blew in,
Fiercely discouraging, entangling my being.
Living a purposeful life,
Is what I hope in plenty.
It will be the longest journey ever.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
New Year Celebration
I'm trying out this slide show service on the web and turns out it's pretty cool. Here are the pics for the New Year 2008 celebrations! The eve of New Year was spent at Sicong's place, and the theme for the party was Uniforms! Wenyao and I scouted around for our Princess Elizabeth Primary School Uniforms within the short notice. Thank God for fat kids around, they actually have our sizes. I can't imagine anyone being able to wear them! Anyway, most of us came in uniforms, from schools around Singapore. Although some did came in mechanic wear or medic wear. But all in all, it was fun. We do have an inert obsession with role playing!
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
The New 2008
I think I did a lot of stuffs which I never thought I will do back in 2007. Managing a team, travelling alone, going on business trip, redoing my entire room, making huge decisions about life etc etc. Thinking back, I realised the time spent going through the challenges might seemed long, so much that I couldn't believe I did all these in 2007! All in all, it was a good year, except for a few gliches, which I really hope to make right this year. So here's what I hope for in 2008. Note that they are not in order of sequence!
Goals 2008
1) Save up! I really need to do this if I want to get married. I hope I finally grasp the importance of saving.
2) Spend less. This ties in with #1. I'm spending on stupid stuff without thinking and I must kick away that bloody bad habit!
3) Travel to either Europe, Japan, Australia or New Zealand. I hope to take a nice long budget trip and experience the world!
4) Pass my CFA. I am officially a CFA Level I Candidate, and hope that I can move on to the next level this year. Too much time has been wasted wondering where I should go and what I should do, and I have to move on fast. Wenyao, I need your support on this!
5) Focus on my career. I want to focus on my career no matter where I am. I think motivation is an essential triat which I hope will be with me all my life. During 2007, there were times when I lost focus, and when I started to get demotivated. Now I just what to do best at what I'm doing.
6) Eat healthy! I think being a pseudo vegan is a good way of life and I hope to continue to keep it that way. Eating less meat certainly creates better health in my opinion. I have been eating a lot of meat lately, and I should probably stay focus on my diet for a healthy way of life.
7) Start running. I haven't been running much this year, and I must start running! It's the most productive way of relieving stress, and keeping fit!
8) Be creative. I realised working can have a detrimental effect on your brain, especially when you are caught doing similar stuff day by day. Therefore, it's always best to be creative at everything, keeps the brain moving!
9) Spend more time with my family. I haven't been spending time with my family and I'm really feeling guilty about it. Parents will not always be there, and I might not be staying with them always, therefore it's best to start early.
10) Master a foreign language. I must start doing this on the later half of the year!
11) Finding a suitable location for a new home. I probably shouldn't say this, because the ring hasn't arrive. Haha! But I should keep this in view in case I missed a chance!
12) Grow closer to God. I want to grow closer to Him this year and thereafter. Been procrastinating way too long, and I really hope Wenyao will be with me on this. (It's a triangular relationship!)
13) Godly personality. I hope to have a personality that God wants us all to have. It should encompass all things good. Specifically, I hope to be able to be more patient, having more kindness, consideration, tact, sensibility and confidence.
14) Sponsoring an overseas trip for my parents. I think it's high time I paid for a trip! Might not happen when I get married. All the trips they sponsored, I really can't match up. Haha.
15) Continue my fashion education. Either I start something or I continue with the classes. Still, will only take place mid year.
I really hope I'll be able to keep to the resolutions I made. This is a frightful year for me, but the Lord tells me it will be good. I will keep my faith to that!
Goals 2008
1) Save up! I really need to do this if I want to get married. I hope I finally grasp the importance of saving.
2) Spend less. This ties in with #1. I'm spending on stupid stuff without thinking and I must kick away that bloody bad habit!
3) Travel to either Europe, Japan, Australia or New Zealand. I hope to take a nice long budget trip and experience the world!
4) Pass my CFA. I am officially a CFA Level I Candidate, and hope that I can move on to the next level this year. Too much time has been wasted wondering where I should go and what I should do, and I have to move on fast. Wenyao, I need your support on this!
5) Focus on my career. I want to focus on my career no matter where I am. I think motivation is an essential triat which I hope will be with me all my life. During 2007, there were times when I lost focus, and when I started to get demotivated. Now I just what to do best at what I'm doing.
6) Eat healthy! I think being a pseudo vegan is a good way of life and I hope to continue to keep it that way. Eating less meat certainly creates better health in my opinion. I have been eating a lot of meat lately, and I should probably stay focus on my diet for a healthy way of life.
7) Start running. I haven't been running much this year, and I must start running! It's the most productive way of relieving stress, and keeping fit!
8) Be creative. I realised working can have a detrimental effect on your brain, especially when you are caught doing similar stuff day by day. Therefore, it's always best to be creative at everything, keeps the brain moving!
9) Spend more time with my family. I haven't been spending time with my family and I'm really feeling guilty about it. Parents will not always be there, and I might not be staying with them always, therefore it's best to start early.
10) Master a foreign language. I must start doing this on the later half of the year!
11) Finding a suitable location for a new home. I probably shouldn't say this, because the ring hasn't arrive. Haha! But I should keep this in view in case I missed a chance!
12) Grow closer to God. I want to grow closer to Him this year and thereafter. Been procrastinating way too long, and I really hope Wenyao will be with me on this. (It's a triangular relationship!)
13) Godly personality. I hope to have a personality that God wants us all to have. It should encompass all things good. Specifically, I hope to be able to be more patient, having more kindness, consideration, tact, sensibility and confidence.
14) Sponsoring an overseas trip for my parents. I think it's high time I paid for a trip! Might not happen when I get married. All the trips they sponsored, I really can't match up. Haha.
15) Continue my fashion education. Either I start something or I continue with the classes. Still, will only take place mid year.
I really hope I'll be able to keep to the resolutions I made. This is a frightful year for me, but the Lord tells me it will be good. I will keep my faith to that!
Let's see what I achieved so far...
These were the goals set previously. Let's see how it all went! Red for achievements, Green for flops!
Goals for 2007
1) Lose 7 Kg and for goodness sake, please lose it! Yes…I gained another 2kg this year… - I think I gained another 2... Gross.
2) Visit Gym twice weekly. I must make full use of my payments!!! - Changed my payment scheme, visited Gym even less....
3) Be more confident & spontaneous. Yada yada yada.. - Not up to expectation still...
4) Strike 100 funds per month, or maybe just enough to make my boss gimme bonus! - Didn't strike 100, but getting bonus, but don't think it's too big..hai!
5) Complete baptism. I must be more motivated! - Bad Bad Christian!
6) Visit just ONE nice country. Aussie, Taiwan or Japan..that’s a hard choice to make! - I visited Taiwan!!! But it's not that nice...Went to London on a business trip! Super nice! But travelled alone though...does Redang count too??
7) Save at least 800 per month! Or as much as possible! Motivate me ppl! - This is really bad, I shall not delve further...
8) Spend 80 bucks a week on meals, eat less is the best! - I put in this knowing it's impossible. Hah. It will not be repeated in my resolution for 2008!
9) Join Standard Chartered Marathon – Tentatively 10km. - I didn't sign up at all! By the time I wanted to sign up, the cost was 50 bucks. I reckon such a short distance shouldn't be worth that much. And damn! The lady's singlet was so nice...Grrr..
10) Learn French - Put on hold...
11) Learn Dressmaking! That’s my first step to fashion education! - I started the lessons, but I stopped halfway!!! Bad Bad Bad!!!
12) Take/ signup for CFA/CAIA - I seriously hope I have time to study for this...
13) Hopefully a new work environment - Still at Telok Ayer Street...
14) Take a full body checkup! Hasn’t had time for it in the whole year!!! Maybe it’s the cost that’s making me procrastinate… - I did! And my cholesterol is so high I became a vegan for a while..damn..I should eat healthy food again!
15) Learn more about investments for my future’s sake! - I did, and I tried, until I lost... abit. Haha.
16) Improve my tennis!!! - I think I played even less tennis than I did in 2006...
Wish List 2007
1) New jeans - Got 2 nice skinny jeans
2) One nice designer bag - Got a Kate Spade and Agnes B, but not yet not yet...
3) New mobile phone - Got one phone, but super sucky! Don't buy N73!!!
4) Shoerack - I think I don't need this in the meantime. Haha.
5) New Keyboard - Yeah! Wenyao got it for me~!
OK! My resolutions for 2008 coming up next!
Goals for 2007
1) Lose 7 Kg and for goodness sake, please lose it! Yes…I gained another 2kg this year… - I think I gained another 2... Gross.
2) Visit Gym twice weekly. I must make full use of my payments!!! - Changed my payment scheme, visited Gym even less....
3) Be more confident & spontaneous. Yada yada yada.. - Not up to expectation still...
4) Strike 100 funds per month, or maybe just enough to make my boss gimme bonus! - Didn't strike 100, but getting bonus, but don't think it's too big..hai!
5) Complete baptism. I must be more motivated! - Bad Bad Christian!
6) Visit just ONE nice country. Aussie, Taiwan or Japan..that’s a hard choice to make! - I visited Taiwan!!! But it's not that nice...Went to London on a business trip! Super nice! But travelled alone though...does Redang count too??
7) Save at least 800 per month! Or as much as possible! Motivate me ppl! - This is really bad, I shall not delve further...
8) Spend 80 bucks a week on meals, eat less is the best! - I put in this knowing it's impossible. Hah. It will not be repeated in my resolution for 2008!
9) Join Standard Chartered Marathon – Tentatively 10km. - I didn't sign up at all! By the time I wanted to sign up, the cost was 50 bucks. I reckon such a short distance shouldn't be worth that much. And damn! The lady's singlet was so nice...Grrr..
10) Learn French - Put on hold...
11) Learn Dressmaking! That’s my first step to fashion education! - I started the lessons, but I stopped halfway!!! Bad Bad Bad!!!
12) Take/ signup for CFA/CAIA - I seriously hope I have time to study for this...
13) Hopefully a new work environment - Still at Telok Ayer Street...
14) Take a full body checkup! Hasn’t had time for it in the whole year!!! Maybe it’s the cost that’s making me procrastinate… - I did! And my cholesterol is so high I became a vegan for a while..damn..I should eat healthy food again!
15) Learn more about investments for my future’s sake! - I did, and I tried, until I lost... abit. Haha.
16) Improve my tennis!!! - I think I played even less tennis than I did in 2006...
Wish List 2007
1) New jeans - Got 2 nice skinny jeans
2) One nice designer bag - Got a Kate Spade and Agnes B, but not yet not yet...
3) New mobile phone - Got one phone, but super sucky! Don't buy N73!!!
4) Shoerack - I think I don't need this in the meantime. Haha.
5) New Keyboard - Yeah! Wenyao got it for me~!
OK! My resolutions for 2008 coming up next!
Friday, January 04, 2008
Bye Bye Dan
Dan is on his official last day today. In memory of his existence in the company, I've decided to write him a poem, inspired by his constant name-calling habits (to me!). It's sad that he's really uncreative, cos the name-calling is always circling a certain animal - FJ (Feiju), Ton Ton (the pet pig in Naruto), Xiao Pang (still..like a pig) etc etc. Tsk Tsk Tsk.
So Dan, here's one for you. It's a load of BS for you though. Hahaha.
Bye Bye Dan
Tomorrow comes,
Tomorrow goes,
“Bye Bye Ton Ton”,
“Goodbye too”.
Seven months passed,
And one ton gone.
Thinner than ever,
Dan looks wrong.
Ton Ton's happy
With Dan gone.
Work brings pleasure,
Oh! Thank God!
Dan eats Wan Ton,
Thinks of Ton Ton.
A happy poet,
With a cutesy bob.
Dan Dan packs on Friday morn,
Junks and stuffs on his table formed.
Seven months, a time too short,
But friendship ties, a bond still strong.
Back to school for Dan Dan soon,
“Study smart with A+ too!”
Ton Ton's back to mugger life,
“All the best!”, he wishes too.
Time will pass,
And time will run,
Days pass, weeks rush
Thus and Thus.
Dan Dan Dan Dan, be mindful.
Be strong, be brave and be good too.
Life ahead may be tough for you,
But trust God that he'll guide you through.
"Take care Take care!" Says us too.
All your friends from EH cooed.
"Come back, Come back, visit us soon!"
"We'll miss your jokes, and be back soon!"
So Dan, here's one for you. It's a load of BS for you though. Hahaha.
Bye Bye Dan
Tomorrow comes,
Tomorrow goes,
“Bye Bye Ton Ton”,
“Goodbye too”.
Seven months passed,
And one ton gone.
Thinner than ever,
Dan looks wrong.
Ton Ton's happy
With Dan gone.
Work brings pleasure,
Oh! Thank God!
Dan eats Wan Ton,
Thinks of Ton Ton.
A happy poet,
With a cutesy bob.
Dan Dan packs on Friday morn,
Junks and stuffs on his table formed.
Seven months, a time too short,
But friendship ties, a bond still strong.
Back to school for Dan Dan soon,
“Study smart with A+ too!”
Ton Ton's back to mugger life,
“All the best!”, he wishes too.
Time will pass,
And time will run,
Days pass, weeks rush
Thus and Thus.
Dan Dan Dan Dan, be mindful.
Be strong, be brave and be good too.
Life ahead may be tough for you,
But trust God that he'll guide you through.
"Take care Take care!" Says us too.
All your friends from EH cooed.
"Come back, Come back, visit us soon!"
"We'll miss your jokes, and be back soon!"
A New New Year
A New Year passed
A New Year past
Forthcoming New Year,
Impending fast.
A year gone older,
But not a year mature,
What have I done?
What I have done.
Regrets and achievements
Amidst highs and lows,
Big changes small tempers,
Cower and grow.
Unfinished businesses,
Imminent tasks,
Verklempt looms,
Not eager for start.
A Pessimist to many
But not necessary
A carthargic course
Welcoming new months.
A year of challenges,
A year of greatness,
A year of God's favour,
In faithful time.
Can't believe it's already the start of a new year. And when I though I was still in a New Year, aka 2007. Time really flies. Loads of changes and loads of un-changes. Hah. Wrote a poem to reminisce about 2007. Shall update on my resolutions on a later date!
A New Year past
Forthcoming New Year,
Impending fast.
A year gone older,
But not a year mature,
What have I done?
What I have done.
Regrets and achievements
Amidst highs and lows,
Big changes small tempers,
Cower and grow.
Unfinished businesses,
Imminent tasks,
Verklempt looms,
Not eager for start.
A Pessimist to many
But not necessary
A carthargic course
Welcoming new months.
A year of challenges,
A year of greatness,
A year of God's favour,
In faithful time.
Can't believe it's already the start of a new year. And when I though I was still in a New Year, aka 2007. Time really flies. Loads of changes and loads of un-changes. Hah. Wrote a poem to reminisce about 2007. Shall update on my resolutions on a later date!
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Christmas isn't Christmas
Christmas isn't Christmas
'Till it happens in your heart.
Somewhere deep inside you
Is where Christmas really starts.
So give your heart to Jesus
You'll discover when you do
That it's Christmas,
Really Christmas for you.
Jesus brings warmth like a winter fire
A light like a candle's glow
He's waiting now to come inside
As he did so long ago.
Jesus brings gifts of truth and light
And makes them bloom and grow.
So welcome Him with a song of joy
And when He comes, you'll know that
Christmas isn't Christmas
'Till it happens in your heart.
Somewhere deep inside you
Is where Christmas really starts.
So give your heart to Jesus
You'll discover when you do
That it's Christmas,
Really Christmas for you.
'Till it happens in your heart.
Somewhere deep inside you
Is where Christmas really starts.
So give your heart to Jesus
You'll discover when you do
That it's Christmas,
Really Christmas for you.
Jesus brings warmth like a winter fire
A light like a candle's glow
He's waiting now to come inside
As he did so long ago.
Jesus brings gifts of truth and light
And makes them bloom and grow.
So welcome Him with a song of joy
And when He comes, you'll know that
Christmas isn't Christmas
'Till it happens in your heart.
Somewhere deep inside you
Is where Christmas really starts.
So give your heart to Jesus
You'll discover when you do
That it's Christmas,
Really Christmas for you.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
My other half
I realised most of the blogs I read referred their other half to dear, darling, etc etc. I thought back and found it weird I've never reflected Wenyao in any of my writings in a beloved-meaning tag. Hah, but I realised in my everyday speech, I've called him loads of stuffs besides Wenyao. I remembered once I called out his name, and he looked at me as if I've just spouted vulgarities to him. Then he blankly asked me why I called his name. Funny yah, give "name calling" to a whole new level.
He has loads of names in my dictionary. I call him Hubby, Dear, Papa (my future kid's father). Not forgetting the Oie and Wei's of course.
I guess I just find it weird to pen a tag for him, of cos assuming everyone who reads my blog already know who he is.
I've been experiencing some deaths recently. Got me thinking about what I'm gonna do if my other half goes before me, or vice versa. I'm not a person who deal openly with death. I may seem OK, but I know subconsciously I'm always grieving, and grieving way too long and in too much in denial to want to know it.
So I've thought up a plan. I shall plan the grieving process for my other half. And I hope my other half will do it for me too. *hint hint* My other half told me he doesn't need the stuff which I'm planning, but just in case. I do hope I get it if he should pass before me, because technically I thought of it because I need it!
Anyways, the plan is this. I shall write the stuff which I feel ought to be remembered, and pen them in entries so that after my death, my other half can read it. I think the worse part of losing someone is the loneliness that follow, so by reading what I wrote about us, it could be way easier in dealing grieve on your own. Albiet, to some, it might sound pretty spooky. Haha, but I think that should work for me. Of course, I'll probably slots comments on grieving in between to aid in the process.
Of course, this will only work if I live enough to write entries fit for a 6-month read (my targeted healthy grieving period) So, I shall start planning now!
Such a great idea, I think I'm a genius!
P/S: WY, please start writing after your exam...
He has loads of names in my dictionary. I call him Hubby, Dear, Papa (my future kid's father). Not forgetting the Oie and Wei's of course.
I guess I just find it weird to pen a tag for him, of cos assuming everyone who reads my blog already know who he is.
I've been experiencing some deaths recently. Got me thinking about what I'm gonna do if my other half goes before me, or vice versa. I'm not a person who deal openly with death. I may seem OK, but I know subconsciously I'm always grieving, and grieving way too long and in too much in denial to want to know it.
So I've thought up a plan. I shall plan the grieving process for my other half. And I hope my other half will do it for me too. *hint hint* My other half told me he doesn't need the stuff which I'm planning, but just in case. I do hope I get it if he should pass before me, because technically I thought of it because I need it!
Anyways, the plan is this. I shall write the stuff which I feel ought to be remembered, and pen them in entries so that after my death, my other half can read it. I think the worse part of losing someone is the loneliness that follow, so by reading what I wrote about us, it could be way easier in dealing grieve on your own. Albiet, to some, it might sound pretty spooky. Haha, but I think that should work for me. Of course, I'll probably slots comments on grieving in between to aid in the process.
Of course, this will only work if I live enough to write entries fit for a 6-month read (my targeted healthy grieving period) So, I shall start planning now!
Such a great idea, I think I'm a genius!
P/S: WY, please start writing after your exam...
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
My dad is a cheapo, but wenyao is worse..
Was working diligently today until an email popped up at my workplace. I'm seriously diligently working!! Especially since Zhiyuan (aka FJJ) is out for 2 weeks on reservist, and I practially have no one to suan...
Well, back to the email. It was from my dad...subject: Xmas gift and it reads...
Message Classification: Restricted
I have requested CPF Board for waiver of education loan repayment to be made by you. This is the acknowledgement number
Transaction Description
Transaction No. #######
Waiver of Education Loan Repayment #######
My mom was CC-ed in the email, so I sent a reply back
......
Regards,
Zhengyi
After which my mom replied with this.
Such a big X'mas Gift..................
Where is mine?
On seeing this, I helped her reply.
Mummy wants an LV bag. 1000 bucks. 30 years of marriage, that’s $33 per year.. cheap purchase. hahaha.
My dad's turn.
You already have me....... So greedy.............
This time my turn.
She has you but not reaping anything... you are like a plant but not bearing fruits... So the bag can be your fruit...
Anyway this one not considered xmas gift. You already said to be fair to me and bro you will pay our school fees, so technically I paid you extra for the one year! Total $2000!!! You can actually buy her 2 LV bag with that money!
Anyway my extra 200 bucks will be transferred to you still every month, not to CPF but to your personal account, because somebody just asked me to pay for all phone bills...so in a way, that's your xmas gift! And you can transfer that to her xmas bag...
All in all..i'm still the one paying for your gift to her.. so if you really want to give me a gift, you can throw in one LV bag for me as well. Small gift for 400 per month leh!!! Multiply by 12, you get4800!!! =)
OK so one LV bag for me, another one for mummy. Deal!
Mummy, we can go shopping soon!!!
After my long long email, this is his final reply...
No a big deal. I will give each of u a L(ess) V(aluable) Bag.
Me: (-_-''')
When wenyao and Jiajun came and fetch me from work, they had already heard part of the story from Uncle Raymond, whom they met outside my office, while on his way to dinner. So Wenyao was laughing away at my dad's answer.
When we went home after meeting Zeming at Ikea for dinner, he planted this as his msn nick.
I'm so glad my gf wants an LV bag (since it doesn't cost much to buy a Low Value bag)
Diao..my dad say less value, he said low...OMG!
Anyway I realised I forgot to put an important person in my Xmas list. Shitty!
My dad bought tickets for the Disney Live Mickey Magic Show at the indoor stadium for my kiddy cousins. Will be bringing 5 of them for the 330pm show this Fri. So exciting!!! Can't believe how my parents and I are going to handle 5 kids together! Gin (11), Sheanne (8), Keanne (5) Zidane (4) and Kai-ann (2). Bah! We are so adventurous!!!
Well, back to the email. It was from my dad...subject: Xmas gift and it reads...
Message Classification: Restricted
I have requested CPF Board for waiver of education loan repayment to be made by you. This is the acknowledgement number
Transaction Description
Transaction No. #######
Waiver of Education Loan Repayment #######
My mom was CC-ed in the email, so I sent a reply back
......
Regards,
Zhengyi
After which my mom replied with this.
Such a big X'mas Gift..................
Where is mine?
On seeing this, I helped her reply.
Mummy wants an LV bag. 1000 bucks. 30 years of marriage, that’s $33 per year.. cheap purchase. hahaha.
My dad's turn.
You already have me....... So greedy.............
This time my turn.
She has you but not reaping anything... you are like a plant but not bearing fruits... So the bag can be your fruit...
Anyway this one not considered xmas gift. You already said to be fair to me and bro you will pay our school fees, so technically I paid you extra for the one year! Total $2000!!! You can actually buy her 2 LV bag with that money!
Anyway my extra 200 bucks will be transferred to you still every month, not to CPF but to your personal account, because somebody just asked me to pay for all phone bills...so in a way, that's your xmas gift! And you can transfer that to her xmas bag...
All in all..i'm still the one paying for your gift to her.. so if you really want to give me a gift, you can throw in one LV bag for me as well. Small gift for 400 per month leh!!! Multiply by 12, you get4800!!! =)
OK so one LV bag for me, another one for mummy. Deal!
Mummy, we can go shopping soon!!!
After my long long email, this is his final reply...
No a big deal. I will give each of u a L(ess) V(aluable) Bag.
Me: (-_-''')
When wenyao and Jiajun came and fetch me from work, they had already heard part of the story from Uncle Raymond, whom they met outside my office, while on his way to dinner. So Wenyao was laughing away at my dad's answer.
When we went home after meeting Zeming at Ikea for dinner, he planted this as his msn nick.
I'm so glad my gf wants an LV bag (since it doesn't cost much to buy a Low Value bag)
Diao..my dad say less value, he said low...OMG!
Anyway I realised I forgot to put an important person in my Xmas list. Shitty!
My dad bought tickets for the Disney Live Mickey Magic Show at the indoor stadium for my kiddy cousins. Will be bringing 5 of them for the 330pm show this Fri. So exciting!!! Can't believe how my parents and I are going to handle 5 kids together! Gin (11), Sheanne (8), Keanne (5) Zidane (4) and Kai-ann (2). Bah! We are so adventurous!!!
Sunday, November 18, 2007
The Wake
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
A human soul, wrecked body, apart.
Tears aflowing, wailing chimes,
Give and take, it all began.
Footsteps heavy, towards the wood,
A log carved out, a figure put.
A Mother's cry, a Brother's grief,
And Father's heart breaking in between.
Friends gathered, 12 long years,
Hellos exchanged, rootless words.
Awkward silence fill the air,
Smiles and shares to break the scare.
Time to go, and time to grow,
Who's to know 24 was his foe.
Goodbyes said in a hasty pace,
But memories and feelings will remain.
A human soul, wrecked body, apart.
Tears aflowing, wailing chimes,
Give and take, it all began.
Footsteps heavy, towards the wood,
A log carved out, a figure put.
A Mother's cry, a Brother's grief,
And Father's heart breaking in between.
Friends gathered, 12 long years,
Hellos exchanged, rootless words.
Awkward silence fill the air,
Smiles and shares to break the scare.
Time to go, and time to grow,
Who's to know 24 was his foe.
Goodbyes said in a hasty pace,
But memories and feelings will remain.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Thou shalt start blogging again...
Realised I haven't been blogging for quite some time. I love to write, that's why English is my favourite subject. I was shuffling through some old folders on my comp recently, and came across articles and papers I wrote during school time. It alarmed me when I finished reading them. I like how I write, or rather used to write. Sad!
It's amazing how 2 years seem to pass so fast. I lost some abilities and I gained some. But I do hope the interest in writing is not waning. I shall start blogging again for a start. Typing is way better than manually writing. Haha.
Just came back from a Taiwan trip this week. Places are interesting enough, but the tour is really bad. By tour I refer to the package which we took, the tour guide was horrible. I shall not delve further. But on a sidenote, I've decided to write in a feedback letter just to highlight my displeasure..eh hem...displeasures.
I read my last entry and to follow up on the vegan thing. Yes, I did last one week, and even better I lasted a month, eating only veg and fish plus minimal seafoods. Hah. I'm a pseudo vegan, and I want to try keeping it that way. Bad thing about it, I realised I end up eating the same food over and over again, it got quite sick but I persisted. Until I went Taiwan. OMG. There had been a flood recently, and all the crops are submerged. Turned out veg became more expensive than meat, and there was lots of meat. I had to eat some...well, I think I ate too much. Hah, but seriously, it's difficult to be a vegan in Singapore. But I shall try!!!
Well, just to update what I've been doing. I guessed it's all still the same. Good and bad, but I'm beginning to be pretty rooted to what I am doing currently. Weekends are spend heading out, or watching shows or just bumming around. Funny thing is I like it! It's the pure pleasure of a hard week's work!
Work's been the same. Some good some bad. My colleague is leaving me. Seems like every year end is a time for departure. And everyone I'm good at leaves or left. OMG, is it me or the job?! Hohoho.
Alrite, my shows are loaded, I will try to blog interesting stuff again! Although I suspect I'm the only one reading it. Hah!
It's amazing how 2 years seem to pass so fast. I lost some abilities and I gained some. But I do hope the interest in writing is not waning. I shall start blogging again for a start. Typing is way better than manually writing. Haha.
Just came back from a Taiwan trip this week. Places are interesting enough, but the tour is really bad. By tour I refer to the package which we took, the tour guide was horrible. I shall not delve further. But on a sidenote, I've decided to write in a feedback letter just to highlight my displeasure..eh hem...displeasures.
I read my last entry and to follow up on the vegan thing. Yes, I did last one week, and even better I lasted a month, eating only veg and fish plus minimal seafoods. Hah. I'm a pseudo vegan, and I want to try keeping it that way. Bad thing about it, I realised I end up eating the same food over and over again, it got quite sick but I persisted. Until I went Taiwan. OMG. There had been a flood recently, and all the crops are submerged. Turned out veg became more expensive than meat, and there was lots of meat. I had to eat some...well, I think I ate too much. Hah, but seriously, it's difficult to be a vegan in Singapore. But I shall try!!!
Well, just to update what I've been doing. I guessed it's all still the same. Good and bad, but I'm beginning to be pretty rooted to what I am doing currently. Weekends are spend heading out, or watching shows or just bumming around. Funny thing is I like it! It's the pure pleasure of a hard week's work!
Work's been the same. Some good some bad. My colleague is leaving me. Seems like every year end is a time for departure. And everyone I'm good at leaves or left. OMG, is it me or the job?! Hohoho.
Alrite, my shows are loaded, I will try to blog interesting stuff again! Although I suspect I'm the only one reading it. Hah!
Monday, September 03, 2007
What I have been up to recently...
I went for a mandarin musical last Wed on the 29th - 天冷就回来. The script was inspired by all the songs that 梁文福 wrote. I was apprehensive at first, because I don't really listen to his song, but the turn out was better than expected. I seriously recommend it, although the male cast was a lot better than the females. And I mean way better..the females' voice wasn't that stable though. But the story plot is nice. I heard the tickets were totally sold out, and the only available ones are in 2009!
There is this poem which they read during the play. By EE Cummings. And I like it.
Got this book from Borders a few days back - Skinny Bitch by Rory Freedman and Kim Barnouin. Made me so determined to become a vegan. Tried it for 2 days and found it so hard to buy food that is meatless! So I decided to be a pseudo vegan, I shall only eat seafood! I was super put off by the methods that the book described on animals which were killed, which was mainly cows, chickens and pigs. Super grossed out. I feel inhumane eating them. Plus of course unhealthy too, judging by the methods used to rear the animals. Wenyao said he'll give me a week and see how long it'll last. Anyway my cholesterol is super high, so I might as well try. Hah.
Let's see how long I'll last. Being a vegan also meant I should be proactive on animal rights activities. I just bought 2 pairs of leather shoes without thinking twice... Hah. It's bad huh.
Omg I realised I haven't written in such a long time, I've forgotten how to blog. My language is so uninteresting...Omg I used the word uninteresting..so boring..*roar*puipuipui*
There is this poem which they read during the play. By EE Cummings. And I like it.
anyone lived in a pretty how town
anyone lived in a pretty how town
(with up so floating many bells down)
spring summer autumn winter
he sang his didn't he danced his did.
Women and men (both little and small)
cared for anyone not at all
they sowed their isn't they reaped their same
sun moon stars rain
children guessed (but only a few
and down they forgot as up they grew
autumn winter spring summer)
that noone loved him more by more
when by now and tree by leaf
she laughed his joy she cried his grief
bird by snow and stir by still
anyone's any was all to her
someones married their everyones
laughed their cryings and did their dance
(sleep wake hope and then)they
said their nevers they slept their dream
stars rain sun moon
(and only the snow can begin to explain
how children are apt to forget to remember
with up so floating many bells down)
one day anyone died i guess
(and noone stooped to kiss his face)
busy folk buried them side by side
little by little and was by was
all by all and deep by deep
and more by more they dream their sleep
noone and anyone earth by april
with by spirit and if by yes.
Women and men (both dong and ding)
summer autumn winter spring
reaped their sowing and went their came
sun moon stars rain
Got this book from Borders a few days back - Skinny Bitch by Rory Freedman and Kim Barnouin. Made me so determined to become a vegan. Tried it for 2 days and found it so hard to buy food that is meatless! So I decided to be a pseudo vegan, I shall only eat seafood! I was super put off by the methods that the book described on animals which were killed, which was mainly cows, chickens and pigs. Super grossed out. I feel inhumane eating them. Plus of course unhealthy too, judging by the methods used to rear the animals. Wenyao said he'll give me a week and see how long it'll last. Anyway my cholesterol is super high, so I might as well try. Hah.
Let's see how long I'll last. Being a vegan also meant I should be proactive on animal rights activities. I just bought 2 pairs of leather shoes without thinking twice... Hah. It's bad huh.
Omg I realised I haven't written in such a long time, I've forgotten how to blog. My language is so uninteresting...Omg I used the word uninteresting..so boring..*roar*puipuipui*